[laxer12]

I've been having dreams about my every couple of weeks now and they always put me in such a weird mood. Especially when I have a session the next day...

Last night I had a dream about my T (who was actually a male version of my T, super weird...) and I got really upset and walked out. When I walked in to the office, there was a young adult girl who was going to take notes/shadow him so she sat in on the session. I sat down and just got really, really sad and angry so I walked out to go to the bathroom. Then my actual T (not the man) followed me out and gave me a big a hug while I cried in her arms.

I've had multiple dreams like this where there was someone else in the room, either another client, my parents, or someone taking notes and it always makes me super upset.

Part of me wants to go into my session today, start EMDR and just completely break down and have T hold me while I cry. It's not even that I'm sad all the time, I just want her to embrace me while I'm hurting. However, I can't shed a tear in therapy even if I try so it's not going to happen.

[musinglizzy]

I really never dream about my Ts. I wish I would.... it would be interesting to see what my dream state would show me....

[rainbow8]

Originally Posted by laxer12

I've been having dreams about my every couple of weeks now and they always put me in such a weird mood. Especially when I have a session the next day...

Last night I had a dream about my T (who was actually a male version of my T, super weird...) and I got really upset and walked out. When I walked in to the office, there was a young adult girl who was going to take notes/shadow him so she sat in on the session. I sat down and just got really, really sad and angry so I walked out to go to the bathroom. Then my actual T (not the man) followed me out and gave me a big a hug while I cried in her arms.

I've had multiple dreams like this where there was someone else in the room, either another client, my parents, or someone taking notes and it always makes me super upset.

Part of me wants to go into my session today, start EMDR and just completely break down and have T hold me while I cry. It's not even that I'm sad all the time, I just want her to embrace me while I'm hurting. However, I can't shed a tear in therapy even if I try so it's not going to happen.

Ever since I began therapy, years ago, I've had fantasies, though not dreams, in which I'm running around the room, T has to stop me, and then she's holding me while I cry. Like you, I've never shed a tear in therapy, though I've wanted to. I still wish T would hold me while I cry, but I don't have those fantasies anymore. I think it's because I am close enough to my current T to know that she can comfort me whether I run around first, or not. I can also hold her hand whenever I want.

It sounds like you want more of T, and want her all to yourself. Others get in the way, or maybe your inhibitions get in the way. You want her to comfort you, to hold you while hurting. Like good Mommies do. Can you tell your T about your dreams?

[laxer12]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Can you tell your T about your dreams?

I don't know if I could tell her...I'm sure she would be very accepting and validating just like she always is but I guess I'm sort of ashamed with how much I think about her.

She knows I'm attached and that I think about her and therapy a lot but she doesn't know the full extent.

I would write it out and send it to her but today's conversation changed that...she said it is completely okay for me to send emails but that going forward, she wants me to read them in our sessions to try and help me get more comfortable sharing things out loud when I'm with her. I don't know if I could write something about these dreams and then read it to her, even if she read it before I got to the session...

[Teddy:)]

Originally Posted by laxer12

I've been having dreams about my every couple of weeks now and they always put me in such a weird mood. Especially when I have a session the next day...

Last night I had a dream about my T (who was actually a male version of my T, super weird...) and I got really upset and walked out. When I walked in to the office, there was a young adult girl who was going to take notes/shadow him so she sat in on the session. I sat down and just got really, really sad and angry so I walked out to go to the bathroom. Then my actual T (not the man) followed me out and gave me a big a hug while I cried in her arms.

I've had multiple dreams like this where there was someone else in the room, either another client, my parents, or someone taking notes and it always makes me super upset.

Part of me wants to go into my session today, start EMDR and just completely break down and have T hold me while I cry. It's not even that I'm sad all the time, I just want her to embrace me while I'm hurting. However, I can't shed a tear in therapy even if I try so it's not going to happen.

I find that I can be super emotional and cry at the drop of a hat the days before my session but then be completely unable to shed a tear in my session, its so frustrating because usually I'm a mess when I leave and days after. I seem to struggle to let that vulnerability be shown with T

[Perna]

I always got a lot from discussing my dreams with T. Studying dreams, I learned that we are all the characters in our dreams since they are our dreams that our unconscious is making up. It's our play/drama that we see.

Maybe you could just mention to your T that you often have a dream about her the night before you come see her? If she asks for details, give her as many as you are comfortable with (that she was a man and had a girl shadowing her). Even the awkward parts though, like her hugging you while you cry, etc., it's just a dream. I got so I could tell my T everything and I had a dream where my head was in her lap and she was stroking my hair

[satsuma]

I haven't dreamed it, but my kind of comfort fantasy is that I go up to my T when I am upset and rest my head on his lap. I'd need to be about the size of a toddler for it to work and I think it is a toddler-aged need.