Couch 137: Jung's Obsession

ooh! just looked at the meetup site for my drumming group, and they're offering something called "forest bathing" (forest bathing = being among trees for the purpose of relaxing basically) up in Sabino Canyon this coming weekend. So excited! It sounds lovely and I haven't been up there for awhile. Another evening hike - we meet at 5:30pm and then hike into the canyon among the trees and cacti and then gather in a circle, talking and sharing and then drumming together as it gets dark, and then hike out at 8:30 or so. I am so very blessed to have found these folks, who have become my soul family.

I remember a few dreams from last night (actually got a lot of sleep for once!). In one, all I remember is getting an e-mail from marriage counselor that started out with "LT, I love you, too." which made me feel really happy. Then I felt a little sad when I woke up and realized it was a dream.

The other dream was really elaborate and hard to explain. I was on a bus or train and then learned it was going to take us on this special experience, where it would be like being in the middle of a play. Like it was going to ride through this hotel that was being attacked, something like that, and it was going to last over an hour. Everyone else seemed excited, and I was scared and just wanted to get off the train. Also, I was sitting next to this guy that they were transporting to prison. I kept finding excuses to get out of my seat, to go get water, to go to the bathroom, etc. Woke up feeling kinda anxious from that one...

HAH, same here... Still haven't started the essay, due in tomorrow. Sooooo... Let's try this again... *tentative high five* go team?

Hey, unless T is sick tomorrow, I have my appointment tomorrow. Hate only getting to see her once a month but perhaps I'm way way too attached to her. Pocket riders please?

During a recent "dark night of the soul", I texted her a ton of stuff. Told her I'm too attached, told her I'm frustrated I struggle to bring up difficult subjects I want to work on in sessions but keep writing LONG letters to her. In a fit of shoving her away, I confessed I audio record our sessions secretly. Please judge me negatively if you want but please know I already hate myself... I know what I'm doing isn't ethical, despite being legally OK in my country. I could go into the reasons why I did it but it's all been said before if one searches PC about threads on the same topic.

In a continuation of my lousy week, I also said she's the enemy because she's Christian. Yeah I got triggered over Good Friday and Easter Sunday. I know it's really unfair that I said that to her, and genuinely I know there's many good Christians. I'm just...upset because of my fundamentalist Christian upbringing and happened to read something GRAPHIC about parents physically abusing their children due to these teachings which triggered me. Because i experienced similar and to be honest, I never felt T acknowledged the religious element.

I also told her stuff about my long term LDR relationship which isn't very healthy...as in I believe I'm abusive to my SO. And finally I told her I bought blades specifically to SH for the first time, and that I've been cutting A LOT more than usual for me...

I've told her several times that she terminating me would be a fair and valid consequence. Yeah.

I think if she does terminate me, I'll take a long break from therapy. I function, who cares if I'm miserable in life anyway? I'm just someone working a job I hate, treating the few people closest to me like crud.

BATTLESTATIONS READY!

(((QM))) I'll happily jump in your pocket tomorrow.

Hugs
..jumping in ur pocket

Just remembered I had another dream that my 2 front teeth had been whittled down to stumps

Actually I'm just gonna go to a coffee shop and do this cuz I'm not doing anything, haha... I've tabbed 1 page

I haven't done anything yet either... had to go out and buy "supplies"(crisps, biscuits, coffee)... I actually am gonna start now tho. Seriously I actually am. Honest.

Love the new avatar, JD

QM...I'm in your pocket for tomorrow sessions.

JDNA and Lucozader you got this!

My house my smells like bleach. The smell of clean. Probably killed a few brain cells cleaning with so much bleach but it's clean. Ahhh.

That sounds amazing!

I have 4 papers to write before the end of the month. And a pretty open day today, so I need to be getting one done. Maybe we could have a study break later. I'll bring chocolate.

QM, I hope your session tomorrow goes well. Feeling like once a month is not enough seems very reasonable to me. There is no way I could function like that, so I think you are doing quite well. I'm hoping that somehow you can get in to see someone weekly. I know your t is overloaded with cases, but I just want something to work out for you.

Things I had never heard of until I read about on the couch and have made a point of trying in the US:
1) Swedish fish. Verdict: yum
2) Peeps. Verdict: not so yum

Agreed on both counts

I don't like swedish fish at all (texture and too sweet) and peeps are also too sweet but I do like them okay once they have sat out for awhile.
Try a stale peep and see if that changes your opinion of them -letting them sit out and get stale is a whole thing that people do

That's interesting. There are peeps left in the packet so I will give that a go (if my mother in law lets me leave food out )

Peep eating tips and time table for letting them get stale
(there seems to be a stale peeps facebook page too - if you are on facebook)

http://barbieandkenbrinkerhoff.blogs...ate-stale.html

The Visitors' Corner

Here Are The Answers To Every Question You've Never Asked About Marshmallow Peeps | The Huffington Post

https://onmilwaukee.com/dining/articles/stalepeeps.html

I dreamed last night that me, h and his best friend were climbing down a rocky cliff. Wish i remembered more! May do a dream re-entry journey with that one.

I had a dream that I had a scuffle with a man in some kind of authority and he injured my hand so I took photos and decided to sue him.
He said I had caused him emotional injury and he had a lawyer who took photos of injuries I didn't do and claimed I did them. We went to court and he lied about me and other witnesses did too. I felt really powerless.
I think it must have been about T.

Last night i dreamt i used to work with Ashton Kutcher. We were very close, ahem. Also i had TWO zipcars rented out at the same time. THAT is simply not possible! I was driving one to go pick up the other.

I looooove peeeeeps.

Why not about your ex (who actually did physically injure you)? Or the two combined into one?