[20oney]

So I normally see my T every 1 - 2 weeks. and unexpectedly, I had to cancel my last session.. And so, it is week 3, since I last saw her and I still have one week to go.. In this time, I have tapered off meds, started a new job and am moving house I just want my T. It is always a struggle between sessions, but this longer break has really smashed me. I have no one who I can talk to in a, somewhat open way.. My T is the only one in my life who knows about my depression and related issues.. It's just too dang hard

And I say all this, yet I could never share any of this with T anyway, and come time for me to go see her, it'll all become irrelevant to me.. I never seem to face my issues, just push them, out of sight.,.... I just want my mind to leave me alone

vent = over

[retro_chic]

I totally understand that feeling of being very emotional between sessions and then feeling as though it is all irrelevant when you are actually in session. That's pretty much what happened to me today - I had stuff to talk about but suddenly it all just seemed stupid and embarrassing. I don't really have any advice but I know how you feel

[20oney]

Originally Posted by retro_chic

I totally understand that feeling of being very emotional between sessions and then feeling as though it is all irrelevant when you are actually in session. That's pretty much what happened to me today - I had stuff to talk about but suddenly it all just seemed stupid and embarrassing. I don't really have any advice but I know how you feel

Thanks for the reply. I wish it wasn't so hard all the time :/

[Monarch Butterfly]

I understand how you're feeling. I felt similar when I saw a therapist. I'm glad you are able to vent, discuss this here. We're here for you.

[chihirochild]

Hang in there--you can make it 'till the next session, even though it feels so awful. We're here for you!

[Moment]

Hi there,
I feel for you. Hang in there.
But why can't you share this with your therapist? All feelings should be up for discussion, and often the most productive and useful things to discuss are feelings for the therapist. Why don't you feel this can be shared? Would it be too revealing? Would you find it embarrassing, to show your dependence on another person? I mean, I would really think about why you are hesitant to talk about it and then, you know, talk about it. Therapy can be a place for trying new things and changing the way we approach relationships. It can be really hard to share things that show how vulnerable and needy we are but, at least in my experience, doing that is very freeing and has shed light on how closed off I am to others in "normal" life.
Anyway, my therapist is out of town for a week so I am right there with you.

[Kk222]

I also really struggle between sessions and sometimes think that starting to talk about feelings is making me feel worse but by the time I get to the next session I feel better and have forgotten how bad it feels so don't mention it.

[20oney]

Originally Posted by Moment

Hi there,
I feel for you. Hang in there.
But why can't you share this with your therapist? All feelings should be up for discussion, and often the most productive and useful things to discuss are feelings for the therapist. Why don't you feel this can be shared? Would it be too revealing? Would you find it embarrassing, to show your dependence on another person? I mean, I would really think about why you are hesitant to talk about it and then, you know, talk about it. Therapy can be a place for trying new things and changing the way we approach relationships. It can be really hard to share things that show how vulnerable and needy we are but, at least in my experience, doing that is very freeing and has shed light on how closed off I am to others in "normal" life.
Anyway, my therapist is out of town for a week so I am right there with you.

Thanks for the reply. All feeling are up for discussion, I just can't initiate anything.. I really struggle with being open and all that when I'm there. But yeah, it would be very revealing and embarrassing for me to show this. I'm trying to work on all this openness stuff, I just don't seem to get very far. I generally can type a bit out in email form, but even that is pushing it with certain topics.. I donno. It's all worth talking about, just not sure I have the ability to do so!