[smileygal]

Hi all,

I've been going to T now for a long time and whilst I somewhat look forward to the sessions I also get somewhat anxious about them....It's that mix of finding it comforting having someone listening to you etc but also being somewhat uncomfortable about some of the topics and talking about myself for a whole hour etc. Normally my anxiety about them is pretty low and doesn't really impact things too much and usually fades after the first 5-10 minutes once I settle into it. My session last Friday however, was a lot different. I felt extremely anxious going into it and the during it and I'm not sure why. We didn't talk about anything particularly anxiety evoking as I may have done in previous sessions. I'm a bit confused by it really. My T even noticed that I something was up and asked me so. I told them I felt anxious but that I didn't know why and have since tried to figure out but to no avail. All I could identify was that it had started about half an hour before the session. They also highlighted that I didn't seem to be fully 'present' and thinking about it I guess I wasn't which bothers me as I always want to make the most of my time there. Numerous times during it I found myself just staring off into space. It's the first time a session has really gone that way for me and I'm quite bothered by it.

Does this happen to others? I'm not really sure what I'm asking and I know people are going to say talk to T about it which I will do next week but just wanted to post and hear others stories/input as I am just a bit confused by it.

[dlantern]

It does and I have been a session person for a while. It is usually a new area some one not really use to speaking inside from a topic. It could be life kicking us in the hinny. Sometimes not really having the ability to detach as well as before is reason maybe something got you back into that cloudy detached feeling.

[Out There]

I feel like this - do you feel you might be ready to go into deeper stuff ? That can make someone feel anxious. I have explored feelings like this with my T , and your T has noticed so seems quite aware.

[anais_anais]

This is me just about every session.

There's a lot hiding out under there, but it is very hard to reach much less speak about.

[smileygal]

Thanks for all your replies. ..... I feel like I am pretty open with her particularly so about everything in my past and I'm always willing to go as deep as needs be. I have a pretty vague memory of lots of my childhood and I guess I'm not sure what more I can say about my past really we seem to have talked about it so much at this stage I feel like I am starting to rehash the same things. I've trying to tap into old feelings but finding that very difficult. I guess I'm feeling a bit disillusioned and confused this week especially after the session on Friday.