Couch 142 - Pope Hyginus' Final Resting Place (~Something in Latin~)

Thank you everyone for the well wishes. It is heart-warming to come here and see those thoughts.

I'm okay at this point. I think it will hit me more when I see here next week, and particularly when I say goodbye to come back home. It will probably be a true goodbye, and that will be a sad day.

But there is a sense of relief right now that she's in the hospital and being properly cared for, that my Dad isn't trying to do it on his own and risking his own health and safety. Right now that is less stressful than that helpless feeling that more should be being done.

Our youngest son takes these losses hard. All this is happening at a time in his life when he should be celebrating; it's a stressful paradox around here. Last night was his senior recital. He sang an aria from Marriage of Figaro and a lovely duet with his best friend. Today is his last day of school. Saturday is his graduation. And his dear granny is dying. It's a difficult time.

i last smoked marijuana maybe 2ish week ago. before i went on vacation. im worried now because the store wants me to do a drug test within 48 hours. i already told the whoel world i got a job now i feel dumb and embarrassed. i dont know if ill have clean pee- doesnt it take like a MONTH for weed to exit your system???? FUDGE. i thought about smuggling in someone else's pee- i even asked my sister. but she didnt really asnwer my question directly so i dropped it.

however i have another interview today at 1 30- this one is MUCH closer to my home. the other one was 30 min away. this one is like 5 minutes. so my plan is to go to this interview and amaze them with my customer service skillz, get THIS job, and go from there.

the only reason they wnat to Drug test me at the other store is because i will be the service LEAD. at the store im going to today i will merely be a cashier and no one cares if cashiers have marijuana in their system as long as they can count change and smile

Can you do the test anyway? I mean, would you get into trouble for having marijuana in your blood?

Good luck for your interview. You blew away the interviewers yesterday, you can do that again!

@QM: if you have any general questions or just want to rant, I do have some project experience too (not so much as your coworker though). And believe me - most PMs have no idea what they're doing either I think you already pointed out the most important point: one step at a time. And remember to breathe.

The stress from my whole BIL situation coupled with my preexisting issues and marriage crap are making me feel like I am losing it. I just sent t a rambling email and I just need my mind to stop and it won't. I told him I was having some paranoid thoughts, but there is more to add just didn't want to say over email.

Stress can really make a person crazy.

My mom has been placed in hospice. It is in the hospital but under the umbrella of a hospice service. They have diagnosed her with an abdominal mass with complete bowel obstruction; basically, it is probably cancer but we aren't having a biopsy done per her wishes. Doctors figure it will be perhaps a few weeks and this will be where she will be until she passes. Family are all making plans to get down to see her in the next week.

Gonna try to hide my SI from T but idk how well that will go because it's hot outside and we usually walk

I think you should be honest with him, especially since you've talked about the voices with him recently.

He will not be happy and I really don't want him to call the police on me again

He will not be happy and I really don't want him to call the police on me again

I would think if you really want this new job to work out - that getting the command hallucinations under control might be a good plan. If you don't want to talk to the therapist - have you thought about talking to the md who prescribes the meds to you?
Command hallucinations do freak people out.

I think you should be honest with him, especially since you've talked about the voices with him recently.