The commitment to therapy

I have just hit the one year mark with T and am now seeing him twice per week.

When I began therapy, I decided I was going "all the way" with this. I was in a lot of pain and decided everything within had to come out. I had a lot of toxicity inside from overexposure to life's intrusions. Even though I thought I knew about therapy, I really had no idea what to expect and WOW, I am humbled.

I feel ever more so commited to the therapeutic process now. As the relationship gets deeper and more intimate, I find that I am more and more able to expose some of those parts of me that frightened me last year. I wonder why things within us frighten us if they are just part of us?

In just a few short weeks I have come to accept that every word T says may not be words I agree with, but I am more and more able to tell him when I don't. It's okay, because it makes the relationship so much more real!

So, T and me.

Sister,
It's great to hear what a close relationship you have with your T! It really sounds like you have made a lot of progress. I'm really happy for you.

i wonder if it is that we internalise the frightening things from our environment. so events that frightened us are carried around inside us and we reinact them over and over and over until we find the successful resolution (the elements needed for a happier ending)

I think the frightening things we try to get rid of first ("That's not mine!) before we learn to look at them and share them with our T and find the sharing makes their frighteningness less so.

Sister

Congratulations on 1 year. It shows your commitment. Sometimes things are hard, but it's worth it. I found out that I've been going for 4 years - I could hardly believe it! This year I'm paying for extra sessions and going once a week. I think it's making a difference and I'm making more progress. Twice a week must be nice.

sister, congratulations on the intimate and supportive relationship you and your T have formed in just one year. What an accomplishment!

I too am nearing my one year anniversary. I'm going to mention it to my T when I reach it. For me, it is a landmark, and I want to use the occasion to look back and reflect on the journey so far. Will you talk about your anniversary in session?

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Even though I thought I knew about therapy, I really had no idea what to expect and WOW, I am humbled.

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I could have written those words. My 6 month stint with the CBT counselor cannot even be called therapy compared to what I have experienced, so I knew NOTHING about therapy when I started with my current T. I too am completely humbled by the experience, by his role, by my role, and by the relationship. It is like out of this world. Who would have guessed? Not me.

Congrats!!! Go party!