[Petra5ed]

Not physical location, but emotionally? How are you all doing??

Just curious, I'm back on this site after a long absence.

[DodgersMom]

i am ok, kinda struggling because have a huge weight on me and i waited until nearly end of session to say anything yesterday to my T

we only talked about 6 min regarding it and now i gotta deal with this crap another whole week before i can feel more free.... i wish i had been more brave opening up.... but i was too scared to say anything

[Sarmas]

Ive left my therapist and just living life with my coping skills. I'm following a zero tolerance path. Frustrated that my t turned out the way she did. I was an the office with my boys yesterday because they were seeing their therapist and they over heard an argument between a client and her. The client was calling her unforgiving and upset about money. Meanwhile she had a client waiting to be seen by her as well. The client didn't go in until 13 min after the hour. She's a little everywhere. She will never see that she's wrong.

[growlycat]

Thanks for asking!!

Just got back from visiting family out of state and my mom is not doing well physically or mentally. Dementia like symptoms but no diagnosis yet. Saw my long term t and the session was fine until the end. He let me down. Current t Kashi has been wonderfully supportive. But I feel like I'm mourning my mom and she is still here

[Swimmersusan]

Midway through a break with T! Feeling a bit all over the place with it and kind of detached, I suppose somewhat abandoned

[junkDNA]

hi petra5ed, been wondering about you

[unaluna]

Hi, Petra! Same shyte, different day! How YOU doin'?

Eta now i really am officially old - i love when the kids come to visit!

[Out There]

Yes , how are you Petra - it wasn't going too well with your T I recall ?

For me.

Hi Petra, how are you doing emotionally?
I am a time bomb waiting to explode, one minute I am crying hysterically the next minute I am angry!

[Favorite Jeans]

I am basically okay. Coming to see that my ex is most likely borderline and this is helping me to understand the roller coaster that has been my life with her. I am reading about it (Stop Walking on Eggshells --recommended by my T, has anyone read it?) and finding it so triggering and painful that I can only do a little at a time. But it's also very validating and helpful for me to feel less alone and less stupid and to have more compassion for her internal chaos.

OMG. There's a part at the beginning where someone mentions that their borderline person regularly becomes severely rageful at them (for days) for something they did in borderline person's dreams. It's the kind of thing that is mortifying to admit: my partner is bitterly angry and not speaking to me because I cheated on her in her dream. And for some reason I have stuck around.

I love my children more than anything but having them ties me to her for a very long time, and I really wish I could not have to deal with her anymore.

My T is away this week and I miss the reality check where I say something like: "Here is what has happened now. I feel really crazy. None of this makes any sense to me."
And she'll reply: "Because it's kind of batshit and really not an okay thing to do/say. You are okay. And your sense of reason and integrity can guide you through this." Or whatever she says. I just really need another human to say it. Even if I can obviously approximate what she might say right here and now.

Hi Petra! I had a huge fight with t last week, it was really awful, and we met again today to talk it out. We're back on the same page again but it was rough! other than that i'm in the process of interviewing for a new job at work. some timing for a blow up with my t huh.

[Nosis]

Nowhere Man
The Beatles

He's a real nowhere man
Sitting in his nowhere land
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody

Doesn't have a point of view
Knows not where he's going to
Isn't he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere man please listen
You don't know what you're missing
Nowhere man, The world is at your command

He's as blind as he can be
Just sees what he wants to see
Nowhere man, can you see me at all
Nowhere man don't worry
Take your time, don't hurry
Leave it all till somebody else
Lends you a hand
Ah, la, la, la, la

Doesn't have a point of view
Knows not where he's going to
Isn't he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere man please listen
You don't know what you're missing
Nowhere man, The world is at your command
Ah, la, la, la, la

He's a real nowhere man
Sitting in his nowhere land
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody

[1stepatatime]

Doing okay here... just tired!! I hope that you are well😊

[Petra5ed]

Thanks all

I'm good. Yeah, when I was last here things were going downhill, lots of setbacks at once and my T was pushing me away. I ended up getting very sick and was hospitalized for a short bit due to a low heart rate and unstoppable nausea. But, on the bright side, something happened to me and now I am free of a lot of the issues I had. Not completely, but I'm different... in a good way. Feel much better about being alone.