[rainbow8]

This week was unusual because I hardly thought about my T at all, even when she emailed me something about IFS. I didn't miss her. That's progress.

So, I sort of want to talk about death, but I don't want to get depressed about it. Or I could talk about being jealous of my friend's success. Or, we could do the IFS unburdening of parts that I still don't understand. Another idea is to listen to a short meditation on loving yourself that made me cry at home. I still want to cry in therapy, and loving myself is a goal.

The hour goes very quickly, and I'm skipping next week due to family plans. I can never decide what will be most productive. I don't expect anyone to decide for me, but how do you deal with choices of what to do in your session? I always worry there won't be another session; something will happen. T says meditation and mindfulness will help me with all my anxiety, so I'm trying to meditate every day.

[unaluna]

How about, what to do differently with the family? Theres a family event coming up in 6 weeks and i keep going over scenarios with t. I havent rsvp yet, and hes gone next week, so i will probably need to decide after only one more t visit.

[ruh roh]

I go with the one that's causing me the most problem at the moment. If I were ever to have a session when nothing pressing is causing a problem, then I would focus on focusing on doing something to build on my progress.

[Elio]

I can never decide what will be most productive.

I kind of gave up on the concept of productive a while back. I try to go with what my gut says. Sometimes I'll have a list of stuff but anymore that is for stuff I don't want to forget to talk about and not pressing topics.

I try to remind myself that not every session has to be "work" that some sessions can be about bonding and others can just be about recharge/renewal and those are ok too.

My T says that if something needs to be addressed, it will come back around in time so not to worry about it.

[Moment]

If I am not sure what to talk about, I always talk about where things are with my therapist. So I'd start with, "I hardly missed you at all this week. I did not think about you much." We'd probably talk about why that was. I feel like, when things are going well, it can be important to talk about why things are going well, and what's going well, rather than always focusing on the negative.
I also feel like sometimes just going in without a pre-conceived plan can be the most useful thing to do, just follow a thread and see where it leads--rather than deciding on the destination and marching there, if you know what I mean.