The Couch 149 : Boby Lives On!

Morning couchies. I went to bed early last night holding my rose quartz crystal and at some point I let go of it and ended up sleeping on it for awhile and have a sore spot on my back now haha

I hope I can focus better at work today. Yesterday while I was there was a bit of a blur, I couldn't pay attention to anything, I felt so miserable wanting to email t, I took voluntary unpaid time off and left at 11:15 so my lack of focus wouldn't hurt me any more than it did. I am probably going to bite the bullet and send it today. And if she gets madder at me than she already is, well I'm already miserable anyway so what the hell. I hate this so much. I did consider what SD said yesterday about checking out a different t - I will have to think on that some more because part of me says no way am I starting all of this crap over again I don't want to get attached to another t and have to go through this again. Ok I'll stop whining now and go to work. Later couchies.

Hugs to those who want/need.

I forgot the strength of feeling I have towards that guy till I saw him. Whew. That's some intense feeling.

Hi couchies. I dreamt about you guys last night. Also, wanted to share this silly cartoon I found:

Everything is a lie. I'm so tired. I can't stand it anymore.

I'm scared. I can do nothing. There is no exit.

Last night I dreamt of black lab ghost puppies....

$20.00 men's puma boots for meeeee



I have a shoe problem.

I got my mom some CBD gummies to try for her osteoarthritis pain

Hugs... We're real, we're no lie.

You're surviving. That's something. Hang in there

My brother told me to try CBD..... I'm curious. Does it work?

Last nights exchange:



The End.

This book (Running on empty about childhood emotional neglect) is really good I think. I'm recognizing myself all over the place. I'm not gonna email t. I'm gonna do one of the exercises in the book this evening where you identify and name a feeling and work with it to see when you've felt it before maybe as a child. I'm so intrigued that I notice I am not wanting to email her now. May just need to keep my mind busy while me heart heals... I think I can wait now to call her next week when she's back in town to schedule.

Bummer. Just got the email saying I did not get the new position I was trying for at work. Oh well.

oh i see you live in a better state than i do! Send some to VA please

I've never tried it personally but I've heard good things. Supposed to help with anxiety and depression and pain

I'm the state underneath you!!!

Ouija board I made 7 years ago. Just found it stuffed in the closet!!! Along with lots of my old clothes i forgot I had. Pretty excited right now lol

Aw, I'm sorry, Art.

I read my T a passage from a book which had really helped me through the break, and he asked me who had written it. I told him and he laughed and said it was his former therapist.
mind. blown.

What's the book if you don't mind, spoon? (wondering for my own self-help purposes, not stalking)

I'll PM you. Not sure how useful it will be to you as it's on a specific topic. It might be

Cleared out a cd rack as a temporary shelf for a few of my things (there is not a single bare surface in the entire place) I took notes to make sure the cds go back in order.... no signs of order from my perspective but you never know with people.

I feel much better after doing this simple thing. Why am i so territorial...?

Ocarina has come with me. I've made arrangements for it to stay in the care of a friend for the time I'm out of the country. I am pretty sure I would have lost my mind even more than I did if I'd gone with my original plan of leaving it behind.

Danke danke

I always feel so weird the day after I take a lorazepam. Like a flat, dry sheet of pasta. Maybe a strip of forgotten-about lasagne noodle.

I just cleaned the grossest bathroom I've ever encountered (literally hasn't been cleaned in at least 25 years, found oily skin treatment wrappers from the 70s, would rather kill 37 cockroaches) with no. reaction.

Congrats on your 1,500th post, Anais. Sorry about the filthy house. I find your attempt to impose order by making yourself a little set of shelves extremely lovable... also love that your bit of 'light travel reading' is Ulysses.