[x123]

I've been seeing a therapist for at least two years now. At first I was going once a week, and now I am going every other week. Lately the sessions seem like a chore. Also, I feel this urge to put the past behind me and move on with the life I had before I became psychotic back in 2009, and part of that past is sitting in therapy every other week. I also want to stop using social forums like these, because I used to survive without them.

I wonder if it is the changing of the seasons? Fall is my favorite time of year, and I can feel it coming. I am thinking about cancelling my next session and quitting, but I wonder if my reasoning is flawed.

Any suggestions?

[toomanycats]

I suggest trying stopping, honestly Therapy isn't meant to be for forever. If you're feeling like it's time, then give it a try. You can go back if it doesn't work out.

[Favorite Jeans]

How are you doing in general?

[RubyRae]

Maybe instead of ending therapy just take a break from it for awhile whether it's a month or 6 months,see how you do without it?For me,knowing that I can go back anytime I wish to during breaks makes life so much easier.

[Ididitmyway]

I don't see this as a matter of logic. If you clearly feel that you don't need therapy at this time then you don't need it. If it's not so clear and one part of you feels like you still need it and the other one feels that you don't, just sit with all those feelings, turn your mind a.k.a "logic" off and let the decision come to you from the heart. The "logic" doesn't know what we really need unless it is in alignment with the heart, in which case the person doesn't feel any conflict or confusion. So, if you are not conflicted and if thinking about stopping therapy at this time makes you feel good then that's what you need to do. If you are conflicted, give your body enough time and space to process all emotions and to "deliver" its verdict. You don't need to figure it out. Your body will deliver it to you if you allow it.

[x123]

Originally Posted by Favorite Jeans

How are you doing in general?

It seems like I have had several problems
(1) anger/depression about feeling trapped in a family business
(2) recurring delusions/magical thinking
(3) loss of libido due to aging (I'm 50)

I think all those problems have diminished slightly, and the delusional thoughts seem to be virtually gone. The therapy has focused on the first item (anger/depression due to family business). Over several years, the anger has evolved into hopelessness. That is some improvement.

I don't know if the therapy has helped much. I kept doing it only because I thought I needed to be doing something and that was the only idea. Lately, I am beginning to think that it isn't going to work so I need to drop it.

Also, I have an urge to go back to the way I was before I developed psychosis briefly in 2009. I feel like it's time I get over what happened. It greatly affected my life, but I want to move on. I'm tired of thinking about religion and psychology. I'm tired of always needing support and approval on social media. It helps me, but I never needed that help before 2009.

Another possibility is that psychosis is a form of growth - or at least personality change. Maybe I can't go back because I'm not the same and times are not the same and so on.

A final thought it that I might be setting myself up for another psychotic episode. Maybe I had psychosis in 2009 because I had been sweeping my problems under the rug for years instead of facing them. IDK

I just want to be myself again somehow - the person I was before. (Not the bad parts though LOL)

[x123]

Originally Posted by RubyRae

Maybe instead of ending therapy just take a break from it for awhile whether it's a month or 6 months,see how you do without it?For me,knowing that I can go back anytime I wish to during breaks makes life so much easier.

I like that idea. I tried to stop a couple of years ago and my therapist managed to change my mind. I want to make up my mind first, and then I'll probably just call her on the phone to end it.

[Ididitmyway]

Originally Posted by x123

I like that idea. I tried to stop a couple of years ago and my therapist managed to change my mind. I want to make up my mind first, and then I'll probably just call her on the phone to end it.

Sounds wise.