Therapist Leaving Help!

So I learnt that if you go on Facebook and write in the search bar "photos of Bob Kale" for example. The photos they are tagged on that made public can be seen.

Anyway I did that accept I looked up my thearpist .
I saw photos of them and then probably two days later I did it again and then the photos where gone.

I felt rejected and angry!
Because last week with my session with my thearpist they didn't apologise to me
about this - so what happened in one of the sessions I told my therapist "It feels like I love you" then they said "You don't know me" I felt a huge sense of shame and guilt all over.
I spoke to my therapist about this and they said to me "well that wasn't my experience, I remembered telling you it's normal and how it's expected " I said yes I do remember that, but I couldn't tell them that was one session the next fellow sessions was you freaking out.
I mean they told me once "You didn't look at the photos of my family and friends ?" I felted really insulted because I'm thinking why would I do that? I be looking at strangers Facebook page.

So now I feel angry but anxious because they told me last session they leaving the public health system and how they told me I can still be public health system with my keyworker and meds but can't have thearpist at public health system.
They went on to say how they be on holiday after graduation because my thearpist was finishing off there Masters.
I'm quite confused, because if my thearpist some how knew I looked there photos up on Facebook they might get rid of me. I'm actually terrified just the feelings is dreadful. Plus how would they know I looked up there photos on search bar what I explain above.

I know I'm going through this love transference towards my thearpist but I feel like some freak to them.

I am sorry your relationship with your T is rocky; if I understand you correctly, your T is leaving the practice where you see them? That stinks

Don’t know if there is some way they could know you’ve searched them on FB. I can understand them feeling protective of their privacy but everyone is responsible for locking down their information...T’s are not exempt from this, imo.

I can understand you feeling anxious they are leaving. Did your T tell you when this is happening? I hope T can give you a few sessions to get this change squared away...and maybe some closure about how their leaving is going to affect you.

Did your T tell you why you can’t see a therapist through the public health system anymore? I hope you will ask for some referrals.

Is the public health system similar to county mental health? I’ve been to county mental health in a different state- they had such a huge turnover rate for therapists. No T wanted to stay there very long...which bites for the client.

Transference and/or attachment does feel like love sometimes for me, too. It’s hard for me to talk about it with my T. It doesn’t help if the T freaks out about it. That shows bad training on their part, I think. Again, you’re left holding the bag with that, as well. T’s should know this.

When do you see this T or the practitioner that prescribes your meds?

Yeah leaving the public mental Health which is supported by the government.
They said I can go with them but they also mentioned they won't rush it and create a good experience. I'm thinking what good experience that you leaving? Are you getting rid of me? But you said I can go with you?

Maybe they were just trying to tell you options? Like you can go with them if that is a financial/logistical option or that they will try to end things well with you?

Personally, I am not sure that there is a "good" ending when a t makes the decision to move, so I get what you are saying about "what good experience".

Can you ask for clarity? Is going with them an option for you?