Couch 159: Aemilia, a Couch on the Asteroid Belt

Hugs, Lemoncake...it was very rude of your friend to stand you up like that. And sorry you're dealing with those feelings about your family...

The only time I'm really happy is when my diabetes is out of control and I'm putting on weight. Taint fair!

that's great news, luco!

(((Lemoncake)))

LT, I would be terrified if I heard pounding on my door at any hour, but part of that is a ptsd response from a home invasion many years ago. It's the last remnant that I can't shake.

On a funny note, a friend of mine was staying at a vacation rental and she got the scare of her life when she'd gone downstairs in the morning, made coffee, and out of the corner of her eye...she sees a man slowly rise up from the sofa. After some screaming and calling for her husband, it was revealed that the guy had been drunk the night before and entered the wrong home--they all look alike and it was an area where no one locks doors. So it does happen that people go to the wrong place. Doesn't make it any less scary, though.

How do you create the trigger warning thing that hides text?

You start it with [ trigger] and end it with [/trigger] (without the spaces in the beginning).

It is the world championship of kitty wrestling here. I have triedtoanswer posts ut get my ipad slid upon and i have to reset it. I will aswer postson my computer

Hi Couch Folk I want to stay in and hang out and lurk and maybe post here in these threads... but H has made a plan to go to have a dinner at the home of someone i don't know very well. Queue social anxiety, queue substance use disorder, followed by shame, regret, depression, etc.
Anyone have any tips for coping?

Pretend you are the T , with a frame and boundaries lol. Ask the people about their back stories and really try walk on their planet for an hour.

hi couchies i finished the last pair of slippers just now. this pair is for my future brother-in-law. I suppose it's probably not the last pair because now I want some heehee:

Couch... I don't think I Iike my t anymore

Oh no, you ok healed?

What happened Healed

Idk a bunch of small things. I mean in general he is a good t and I have learned a lot in 6 years. But I just think we've come to the end of the road of working together. I am better, I mean I struggle but I have the tools to get by. And my crappy t session last week was really the push that needed to end therapy. I mean I walked out of the session 20mins in because it just wasn't working between the two of us. And all he has to say is things happen, it's life. Or the things that I was telling him really set me off the last two weeks (not the ptsd stuff) but other situations in my life were just normal every day things that we all deal with. Whether or not that is true, it's not what I want to hear when I struggling to get out of the funk of ptsd flash backs and depression. I just felt so silly complaining to him.

So, anyways.. I sent him and email tonight that this week's session would be my last. I am scared as hell, but it's time to rip the bandaid off.

Oh no I killed the couch!

Hugs, Healed...I know it's going to be difficult, but it sounds like you're making the right decision. I almost wonder if your T could be burned out or something...if he's just acting like stuff you're struggling with is just a part of life, he's late so much, etc. Not to excuse him at all... Do you think you want to find someone else or just stop therapy entirely?

Nice slippers Art.

((((Healed))))

The couch cannot be killed. Long live the couch!

(((Healed)))

You did make me think though, about my own current need to end therapy and why I'm doing it. You helped me clarify some of it. So for that, thank you!

I haven't owned a scarf since I was a kid...today, I bought myself a snood. It's wonderful, and so warm.

I am not sure t is burnt out, but just too busy and heading towards a burn out. The late thing has been a thing since day one. He is just a late person.. but it gets to me after awhile. I have been considering being done with therapy since the fall. We talked about it, and he asked me to keep at least one appointment on the books every month for like a year. He's afraid that if I quit cold turkey I may look back a couple of months from end day and feel abandoned by him and he wants me to know I am always welcomed to continue therapy with him. But I think I am just the kind of person that is all or nothing so I just need to stop!

Probably will not find a new therapist.

Is it possible to get a cold over the phone? Spoke to a sick colleague on the phone for two days and now I am feeling the crud. I'm guessing it's more likely from being out in holiday crowds, but the phone calls are what stick with me.

Hello, all. I don't have the mental capacity to have caught up with everyone, but I know several of you are struggling. Hugs or other supportive gestures as appropriate.

This has been the week from Hell. To summarize, I team teach, but my primary coteacher accepted a job a while ago elsewhere in the county. The district hired a replacement, which I expected for my coteacher to take the lead in getting the new lady up to speed. What ended up actually happening is that I'm taking the lead. My original coteacher was only in one full day last week. So on top of everything else, I'm taking full ownership of everything that's happening in my classroom.

I ended up breaking down in my principal's office Tuesday afternoon. Said that if something didn't change that I wasn't renewing my contract for next year. Thankfully my principal is a legit good dude, but still, it was a terrible feeling.

Been fighting with H most of the week also. Apparently I'm insensitive to his needs and feelings, whatever that means. I think he's upset that I'm spending too much time out of the house. Going to places like the gym and brunch with my girlfriends. How dare I.

I said in my last post that I was going to stop seeing V, but we had a really good meta conversation about the whole therapeutic process on Wednesday. Add V into the "potentially harmful self disclosure" camp, because we all know how well I've dealt with that in the past.

Last day of school before break is Tuesday. I can't wait. I feel like I'm falling apart.

(((daisy))) hi daisy, i'm sorry things are so rough, that's awful that the previous coteacher didn't get the new one up to speed. that shouldn't have to fall on you alone!! I'm glad you have an understanding principal. I hope that V is helpful for you and that your break is restful!!

As much as I want to be mad at my coteacher, I can't. She's equally stressed since she's technically in 2 job titles right now. The position that doesn't involve me has a lot of litigious minded people dictating that her transition out of my classroom be faster than anticipated. So naturally everything else falls to me. This new hire isn't technically a hire, but rather a long term substitute, so technically she can't plan. It's just a mess. I may be having a meeting with central office about it (to also include the sub, my coteacher, my principal, and the head of special education for the division) before break. I don't know what it will help. Likely nothing.

Watching V try to keep up with all of this in our last session was hilarious.

Hugs, Daisy...I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that and that your H isn't supported.