[confused4ever]

So my T called tonight, and asked if I had thought about our conversation on Friday, and if I am willing to try one of his collegues. She speacializes in trauma and child sexual abuse, and has EDMR training. Level One.

He talked with her, and she is willing to see me, she has an opening and would like to sit down and talk for a few sessions and then I can make my decision. My T said he is not abandoning me, but since things aren't going well, and the hospital isn't what I want to do, he thinks she can really help me.

I did agree to it, I don't really care what happens right now, just feel overwhelmed with everything, and not really caring what or where this goes.

Nervous about seeing someone new, sad about leaving my T. Feel like even though I know he is thinking what is best for me, but still feeling abandoned!

[confused4ever]

feeling like nothing matters anymore

[wanttoheal]

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I'm so sorry you are feeling like that.

I was going to a different t a few years ago and he referred me to my present t. It was because he was not very knowledgeable in how to treat the issues I had, but boy did I feel horrible about it! I felt like I must not be able to be helped, he knew it and he was throwing me away. It took all I had just to go to that t in the first place and I felt just terrible and abandoned.

I can look back on this now and see what a loving gift that he gave to me by doing this. He couldn't have helped me in the way he needed to and had I stayed with him, I wouldn't have made the progress I've made. The t I have now is much more knowledgeable in the type of issues I have and has helped so much.

I hope this will be the case for you as well. I understand how hard it can be to switch like that. Hang in there; we care.

[confused4ever]

I talked to my T today, and we decided that yes I am going to see his colleague, yes I am scared, petrified, don't want to have to tell it all over again. But at least he will be there for the first few sessions, and he will fill her in on most of my background, and then he will be there when ever I need him after, I can call and email him when ever I want to. He says he is not going to let me go alone at this.......still scared to start over......but at least I know I have more support now........