Most important thing T has taught you

That the problem is that I think I'm the problem.

She has taught me the importance of self-compassion. She has taught me that it's okay to put myself first sometimes. She has taught me coping mechanisms.
Now do I follow through with those things all the time? Lol, of course not. But I try. Self compassion is the hardest one for me.

He established a safe place to say anything and whatever is said is credible and important to myself and my T.

You can feel a lot, without doing anything.

I learned that therapists lie, make **** up as they go along, throw a bunch of crap against a client and hope something works. They don't know what the **** they are doing. And that they have enormous egos.

that it is worthwhile to spend time seriously reflecting on myself and my feelings. my T is really good at showing non-judgemental curiosity when I share anxieties or struggles I'm facing--it reminds me that I'm worth the time and energy it takes to connect with my emotions, and that I should trust (not dismiss) my responses to my how my life is going.

That someone could possibly love me,
that its ok to have feelings.
that its ok to let go of my family’s rules

That I'm not the only one. So many years of wondering what was wrong with me, but I'm actually "normal" for someone who has my conditions. This was huge for me.

That deep connections with people is what I long for most.
That there's a reason for my depression.
That there is hope.