[20oney]

Today, I had my final session with my current T. This came about due to me leaving town. It is far from ideal, leaving T behind. I feel we still had a lot of work to do and we had just started getting through a few walls of mine.

It's been 18 months with her. A lot has happened in my life during this period. T has been there for it all, and has helped me find ways forward.

I'm not good with emotions, I don't often feel. I am numb to this. But saying goodbye, I thought I would feel. I donno, I just wanted somewhere to post, someone to tell. I know the feels are headed my way, I'm just waiting for them to hit me

[SalingerEsme]

That is such a significant goodbye, especially when it is forced by circumstances instead of free choice. I am overly attached to my T, and I can imagine waiting for the hurt to hit isnt fun at all. It is a strange relationship too- so private. There are no Hallmark Cards for I am so sorry that you had to move and thereby leave your T. That is why PC is for. Wish you well and a safe passage. Esme

[DP_2017]

Very sad to hear, especially when you had no choice. Makes it worse.

I have refused to even discuss ending therapy with my T, the thought literally makes me ill. I do have to bring it up soon though because the anxiety around it is too much. It's like the worst part of therapy, I envy those who don't get attached. Very lucky