Couch 161: The Hexagonal Pyramidal Couch

Better to err on tube side of caution, CE.

That’s true CE. You wanted to confirm a forum rule and there are people who suffer here all over this forum and on the couch with weight and body image issues, so I feel it was perfectly fine to confirm the rule.

And Art, you didn’t do anything wrong either. Just wanted to celebrate your goals towards a more healthy lifestyle. Maybe now that your H is home, you guys can make it a family thing and go on the journey together.

Everybody wins on this one.

I’m in bed lying down. It’s only close to 8:30pm right now where I am, but I went to bed because I work 8am to 6pm tomorrow. 10 hour work days are typical working hours for a nanny and many other people, but lately it feels like the days are never going to end. And last week feels like a year ago. And next week feels like it will never get here. Let me shut up now. Have a good morning/afternoon/evening (depending upon your location). For me it’s good nite.

Oh, Luc. That sounds dreadful. I'm sorry. Wishing you luck and love.

For some reason, I'm stuck in the past today. I keep googling old friends that my husband used to have. People that I knew also, but only because of H. I want to reach out to them, but I don't know why. These are people that my H had pissed off for some reason or the other and cut off contact with him. I never knew why they cut off contact with him. I always assumed it was because they got annoyed with his drunken behavior finally. For some reason I want to contact them and tell them he's in prison now. But I don't know why. Support for me? Comeuppance?

I'm sad.

I'm afraid I'll never be able to find a new job.

I'm afraid I'm just going to be a failure in life...

I have a gyno appt tomorrow afternoon. Unlike Phoebe from Friends (and despite my previous bragging to the contrary on this site), i am NOT very bendy

My doctor (GP) told me to take them every other day for a week to taper off. That did not work. I felt like crap every other day and it never went away. So I did what you are never supposed to do and asked Dr. Google.

Art- Are you home and resting? How is your h? Resting too, I hope. What an ordeal. Thinking healing thoughts your way, that he continues to improve.

stopdog, thanks again for the biscotti recipe. I'm trying that one next. Mine were tasty but not crunchy enough to hold up to being dunked seriously in coffee.

LT- I notice when my t takes off her glasses. Not sure it's hypervigilant to notice a therapist's "tells." I learned to pay attention when mine does it, because it usually signals that she's shifting gears a little, like she's shifted a little out of the therapist face and persona.

What squares would you all put on your therapist Bingo card? Mine:
Takes off glasses and says something serious/indightful.
Remembers the dream I told her 6 months ago.
Brings up anger.

Thanks Argo and Una, I hope your appointment goes okay.

My appointment was fine - he was a very pleasant doctor and he didn't make me strip. Funny you should mention the flexibility 'cos it turns out I'm hypermobile which is why I'm so achy and stiff and everything hurts all the time. No sarcoid-related arthritis though!

Got to go and have blood tests now... Hate them so much, argh.

I'm glad your rheumatology appointment went well Luc. Sorry about the blood work.

Raine try to go easy on yourself. Your worth is not dependent on whether your working or not at the moment.

What field are you hoping to get into? Would it be possible to do some voluntary work experience just to get your foot in the door?

thanks, WarmFuzzySocks. H is still feeling better each day, he can't go back to work for a week while he's finishing out the antibiotics, and goes back to dr in 10 days. Well 9 now I guess.

I'm going back to work today, and will see t on wednesday.

Thank you lovely Cake. The bloodwork was fine, I could hardly feel it and managed not to faint. She didn't clean my arm though, which always sparks up my anxiety a little bit. I've had so many of them at this point you'd think I wouldn't care any more but... nope, still hate them.

Next appointment, cardiologist on valentine's day! Very funny universe.

I hope you're okay. I was sad to see your posts in Dear T. I hope you don't leave your T, though I understand how you're feeling.

What timing, Luc.

Hope all goes well. I'm focusing on making it through today...and eagerly anticipating tomorrow. Not too long to go.

((Lost)) almost there!

Well I'm having a lazy work day so far. Because I started the FMLA claim on Friday, thinking at the time I'd be out longer, they locked down all my systems access so I can't work. And my boss isn't in yet to escalate getting it unlocked haha. So I am reading.

H is still feeling good. So hoping it stays that way!!

Cleaning up by just putting a plaster on or using a cotton ball with micropore tape would have taken seconds.

It brings to my mind the lyrics "lets get these teen hearts better faster and faster". I have my internal exam on valentines day too. I could do it on the 8th, but I'm not sure if I'm making the right choice by delaying it. Perhaps i'm just using it as an excuse but studying has become harder. I've been feeling much lower than normal and feel like I'm wasting time.Yesterday was spent crying in bed and today has been slightly similar but I did manage to walk to the park which is an hour away. It sounds insane but walking calms me. And I'm sorry I was just raw. R did reply to the email I sent him over the weekend which I didn't expect him to and it did make me feel better.

Maybe you could do something nice for yourself after your next appointment. Do you like Lush? They have rather indulgent bath oils and bath bombs.

I'm on lunch break & called to check on h, the meds are making him sleepy but other than that he's feeling fine. He is taking his temperature hourly (no one told him to, he just is) because he's afraid the infection is going to come back. I think he wishes he was still in the hospital...

I heard about the"Tide Pod Challenge" in British news today and find it rather odd to be honest.

Ah, maybe I misrepresented that - she did cover it with cotton wool and tape afterwards, she just didn't give me an alcohol wipe beforehand to sterilise the area. I have health anxiety so stuff like that has been known to send me into a stupid panic. I seem to be okay though.

Sorry to hear that you're feeling so low... (although glad to hear that things are okay with R)... it doesn't sound insane at all that you went for a walk and were calmed by it. It's good that you were able to do something healthy to soothe yourself.

I do like Lush a lot! Maybe I will get myself some treats from there for valentine's day Usually I have ice-cream after my hospital appointments!

Hostile self described do gooders - a bonus for the profession. Telling others what they need to do. Fun day in court. Got one of those guys to crack.

I think you deserve a gin and dubonnet tonight in celebration. Or possibly some limited-edition weirdly-flavored Oreos?

OOOo the sterilising wipes! its not you I read it wrong!

I've had panic attacks and anxiety too, so I can understand anxiety levels peaking at things that might seem minor to others.

I love him but it's the wanting and needing him that I find difficult to deal with.

Ice-cream sounds like a good treat! Do it. Do it. Do ittttttttttttt! I honestly do not work for them, but I just spent £28.30 on Valentine Gifts for both of my teenage sisters. It sounds soppy but I want them to see that they do deserve love and somebody to fuss over them.That they are special. I picked a small gift box for £12, 2 bars of soap- the milk bottle and the lips one and a massage bar too. xD We have a store here as well, but it's an hour and a bit away. I've been trying to curb my spending so not "allowed" to buy myself things I don't need and I've been good so far-no new make up or clothes for myself since October.

G and D possible. Abominable cookie combinations - good lord no