[mcl6136]

I am so glad I am not having an appointment today because I think I would simply use the time to obsess about my single status. I'm also wishing that I had an appointment today so that I could actually go into more depth with my T about what I've been doing lately to try to meet an appropriate potential partner. I realize that's a lot of contradictions and a messy state to be in, and I don't expect anyone to have any glaring insights!

I haven't had this much ambivalence about therapy for many years. Mostly, I go and I make some progress... or not. I guess other people feel this way around other holidays. Some people are really triggered by Christmas; or an anniversary of certain events. I guess that's me, today with Valentine's day.

The combination of a series of bad T moments AND Valentine's Day AND my single status has me wanting to hide or freak out.

I've eaten three cupcakes and it's not even 10 AM.

[Mike_J]

I'm both dreading and excited about my appointment on Monday, it's my birthday. TOTALLY stressing out about if I should tell her about it or not???

[LadyShadow]

Originally Posted by mcl6136

I am so glad I am not having an appointment today because I think I would simply use the time to obsess about my single status. I'm also wishing that I had an appointment today so that I could actually go into more depth with my T about what I've been doing lately to try to meet an appropriate potential partner. I realize that's a lot of contradictions and a messy state to be in, and I don't expect anyone to have any glaring insights!

I haven't had this much ambivalence about therapy for many years. Mostly, I go and I make some progress... or not. I guess other people feel this way around other holidays. Some people are really triggered by Christmas; or an anniversary of certain events. I guess that's me, today with Valentine's day.

The combination of a series of bad T moments AND Valentine's Day AND my single status has me wanting to hide or freak out.

I've eaten three cupcakes and it's not even 10 AM.

Don't even sweat it, I have had this feeling and dread around Valentine's Day for YEARS. You want to hear the irony of all of this? I have my yearly psych-evaluation with my psychiatrist later today!! Years ago, I would be an absolute mess going to one of these appointments during this day, but I don't know, with all the blessings I have been counting, and just making through each day, I have become stronger than ever. Granted, I am not technically single, (not committed, but definitely loved), and I think I am just okay with that.

I think as you get older, you may find you will let go of a lot of that anxiety you may feel surrounding a day like today, or you might just run into the potential partner you have been hoping for in the long run. But don't let that stop you from living, and enjoying the moments of today.

(By the way, I am getting totally dolled up for the psych-evalution because I am going to dinner by myself to treat myself for being stronger than I have ever been. Yeah, I might get weird stares and looks, but eh, screw it!).

Originally Posted by Mike_J

I'm both dreading and excited about my appointment on Monday, it's my birthday. TOTALLY stressing out about if I should tell her about it or not???

Happy birthday Monday Mike! You should totally tell her. It would be nice to hear her birthday wishes no? It might make you feel good.

[mcl6136]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Don't even sweat it, I have had this feeling and dread around Valentine's Day for YEARS. You want to hear the irony of all of this? I have my yearly psych-evaluation with my psychiatrist later today!! Years ago, I would be an absolute mess going to one of these appointments during this day, but I don't know, with all the blessings I have been counting, and just making through each day, I have become stronger than ever. Granted, I am not technically single, (not committed, but definitely loved), and I think I am just okay with that.

I think as you get older, you may find you will let go of a lot of that anxiety you may feel surrounding a day like today, or you might just run into the potential partner you have been hoping for in the long run. But don't let that stop you from living, and enjoying the moments of today.

(By the way, I am getting totally dolled up for the psych-evalution because I am going to dinner by myself to treat myself for being stronger than I have ever been. Yeah, I might get weird stares and looks, but eh, screw it!).



Happy birthday Monday Mike! You should totally tell her. It would be nice to hear her birthday wishes no? It might make you feel good.

You have a great attitude!!!

[mcl6136]

And yeah, Mike, you should totally tell her!

[LonesomeTonight]

My marriage counselor wanted to schedule our appointment for today (we're only seeing him about monthly now). I was like, "Uh, yeah, no..."

What's valentines day.
Don't let a commercial bull **** occasion define your life.

Originally Posted by Mike_J

I'm both dreading and excited about my appointment on Monday, it's my birthday. TOTALLY stressing out about if I should tell her about it or not???

In 2014 I had T on my birthday. I brought her a piece of cake. Felt it was sort of the polite thing to do.
She seemed pleasantly surprised.
By the way, if you do that, don't forget to make her able to eat it by providing a fork. (I didn't forget it because I was obsessed about not forgetting it)

[mcl6136]

Originally Posted by Mouse_62

What's valentines day.
Don't let a commercial bull **** occasion define your life.

good point

[bounceback]

I am single and I almost totally forgot it was valentines day. It is nothing special.

[ruh roh]

I avoid facebook with all the proclamations of love and perfect sounding partnerships. To hear my therapist talk, though, most people are miserable in their relationships. So there is that.

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by ruh roh

I avoid facebook with all the proclamations of love and perfect sounding partnerships. To hear my therapist talk, though, most people are miserable in their relationships. So there is that.

Yeah, don't trust what you see on Facebook. I will say, mine was pleasantly (mostly) free of sappy love declarations yesterday.

[mcl6136]

I actually think there is a link between lots of FB time and depression. maybe that's just too much screen time in general but still, FB does allow one to "curate" their lives and leaves others feeling like "I'm not as good." I'm spending less time online and more time outdoors and I feel better and better.