Grrrr .. sensitive ..........

I posted in another thread that as I can’t tolerate medication I would probably be posting more here. Dumbass bear.... I “should” have learnt by now not to be “transparent” - I always get hurt.

I am “just too sensitive” - that isn’t true .. I’d rather be “sensitive” than ....

I suppose I’ll have to join the queue for n.h.s. “Therapy” - and I swore I wouldn’t mention the n.h.s. .....

Is there any “point” in me engaging with a therapist?

Any kind replies are welcome

PS after “opening up” in another thread I feel more “alone” than ever.

Maybe eventually I’ll become “indifferent” to feeling suicidal... or maybe I’ll just disappear. Would be “nice” ...

(Medication is not an option.)

Hi fuzzybear. I don't know what the nhs can offer, but I can relate to not getting along with medication. There are other ways to restore balance and feel better. I hope you find one that will help.

I hope there would be point in you engaging in therapy. I know not everyone has had a good experience, but for me it has been a life- changing thing and very positive. And I haven't needed any medication (except for sleeping tablets, very occasionally).

Please keep reaching out. I'm sorry you feel alone. Do you have people you can reach out to in real life?

I had substantial and life-altering therapy on the NHS (much cleaner than the sometime sh.it-show of therapy I am currently entertaining). Wait on the list and don't rule out NHS til you know all your options.

I’ve almost become “allergic” to the nhs, I’ve had so many bad experiences

I’m not even on a waiting list at the moment, I don’t trust the GP’s at all.. or even the shrinks.. idk

I’m happy for you that you had a positive experience. Maybe I didn’t have the “right” sort of abuse ...

It does feel like a lottery though sorry if I sound cynical, I guess I am ..

Thank you, yeah I’ve been allergic (literally) to nearly all the meds I’ve tried

Thanks, I’m glad you’ve had (are having) a good experience too. (Is this on the nhs? No need to answer)

I have Papa Bear, my husband, in real life and a couple of good friends (who don’t live locally ) And I have issues making new friends and bigger issues trusting them

I’m not looking for advice like “volunteering” - I think I’ve tried most of the things people recommend

I have an excellent nhs shrink...But he specializes in....difficult cases, I suppose, is a polite way of putting it.

Only decent one out of about 17 in a lifetime.

Thanks, this is exactly what I was thinking. Maybe one “good” shrink in maybe 15 or 20

In a lifetime... I’m beyond tired of “waiting” for a decent shrink

I was told by the therapist I saw for a long time I hadn’t made a “significant change” and also that he “needed to get something out of the therapy as well”

Fair enough I suppose

But it was NOT what I “needed” and I don’t think my “needs” were or are “unreasonable” or even “excessive”

But what do I know ..

(Please no harsh posts. I’ve had far too many harsh responses to my pain (and abuse) in “real” life...)

You have my sympathy. I had 17 referrals over 10 years. Some lasted 10 mins before they were crying and I was bored.
Some lasted weeks. Outcome was usually the same I got bored of playing with them, or they took sick leave.

Eventually I get a decent Pdoc and it's ok. I mean it took a long time to find someone who gets it.
Doesn't faff around with all that childhood trauma crap.
Or report my non attendances.
And I attempt not to **** about when I do turn up to my appointments. Win win really.

Anyhoo sorry for waffling.
Really do wish you all the best. Keeping everything crossed you find someone that fits.

Thanks for your reply

Heh. Yeah .. my non attendances.. they reported them. ****ers they bore me for sure ...

What I “should” have said was I was perceived as not having the “right” sort of suicidal ideation. Oh wait.. maybe I’ve been “offensive” again

I am NOT someone to compare abuse. I do NOT compare peoples abuse. They (helpers irl) did

I felt THEY (the “helpers” irl) didn’t and don’t give a ****

That is how I FEEL

I’m not going to share what “my doctor” did to me

nobody has the right to call you out or be unsupportive. period.
you have my support for whatever it is worth ♥♥♥

Hi fuzzy bear-
I am in the the us so I’ve never had to deal with the nhs. However I never found medication all that helpful but I have found talk therapy very helpful. I hope you find a good therapist if that is what you are looking for. Just wanted to show support.

Just want to say that I empathise with you about the NHS.

I have met people in the NHS who were kind to me, but I've also had some truly awful experiences with them. I know that when I deal with them there's about a 50% chance I'll leave upset or traumatised. After my last experience with them I made a conscious decision to find a private therapist, whom I've been with for nearly a year. I don't know if that's an option for you, but you'll probably get a better therapist if they're someone who has to be good enough to keep clients when there's a free public system working alongside them.

I have an appointment next month with the NHS for a potential medical intervention that would wipe out my savings if I went privately. I am scared I will once again end up with someone who doesn't give a toss about me, or where I'll have to fight every step of the way to get a basic level of care.

Just want to say that I understand this.

Hi fuzzy bear, a friend of mine hasn't had good luck on the NHS either. She lives in a rural area and has complex trauma from many years of abuse. Recently she found a private therapist through a charity.

I hope things start looking up for you.

I see my T privately and he's great. It also helps because it gives me a sense of control- I pay him so I can choose whether to see him or not, and how long for (well we both have to agree on this, but it's not time-limited).

I've also had very good and very bad experiences with the NHS. In fact I'm in the middle of a complaint relating to someone who behaved very badly. I think it's hard because it's harder to get access, so you end up feeling you are stuck with whoever you are stuck with. I have a great GP, but it's hard to see her. But I have decided that from now on I will refuse to see anyone else! It isn't worth the risk.

I'm sorry you had a difficult experience fuzzybear.

I dont think there is such a thing as "too sensitive" There is a book for us sensitive people.....The Highly Sensitive Person (HSP's), not sure that is the correct title, but close. Theworld needs sensitive people; they are in short supply.

Everyone can gain from therapy

I like sensitive people. The "too" part is about something else.

Thank you ECHOES

YES, THANK YOU!!!

This post made my day. Not only is it a kind answer, but it hits the nail on the head.