[Rive1976]

So my therapist said today she was sorry that she mentioned to theory about my mom sexually abusing me. As much as a didnt want that to be true part of me did. I know that sounds sick. I just want to understand my thoughts and actions so bad. She said maybe I didn't need to know why but I do. No amount of evidence or theories are going to be enough evidence to know and even if it was I wouldn't forgive myself still. What do I do?

[growlycat]

I am sorry it is so hard. I can relate because I don’t know exactly what happened to me only partially. I was so young. You can be ok with not knowing it just takes time.

[PurpleBlur]

Originally Posted by Dnester

So my therapist said today she was sorry that she mentioned to theory about my mom sexually abusing me. As much as a didnt want that to be true part of me did. I know that sounds sick. I just want to understand my thoughts and actions so bad. She said maybe I didn't need to know why but I do. No amount of evidence or theories are going to be enough evidence to know and even if it was I wouldn't forgive myself still. What do I do?

im not sure that having answers makes a difference. i got outside confirmation recently that matches my nightmares... its more of a mess and actually i wish i did not know...

[Amyjay]

what do you do? You learn to forgive yourself. You have not committed a terrible crime. You are not a dreadful human being. You are a person like any other one of us, trying to get on in the world. Learn to be kind and compassionate towards the adult you now and the child you once used to be.