[confused_77]

I've had 5 weeks of a break from therapy due to mine and T's holidays being back to back. That's the longest break in 4 years.
Since i was away for 3 weeks having time for very indepth self-reflection there were many many moments when i wish i could talk things over with her. As time went on my resentment and anger towards her kept growing: because she wasnt there to listen, because i realised she was only there when i paid her. At the beginning of my holiday i send an email asking a few questions and asked for her to let me know if she thinks she doesn't want to answer then..i did not get any reply. It angered and upset me. I feel like i invested. all of me. Into the therapy and i can't comprehend how any relationshop can be so one sided. It feels like i only get what i put into it. Those emotions keep coming to surface more and more often. The interference of my T hurts!

[SlumberKitty]

I'm sorry your T didn't respond to your email. Does your T usually respond to emails? Perhaps this time she didn't because she is on vacation? It is hard when T's aren't there when we need them. And it hurts. And it can feel like there is such a big distance between us and them. Maybe you can do some artwork or journaling to help with the emotions you are feeling. Please keep reaching out to PC for support. ((hugs))

I'm fortunate that I have a T that is there for me full stop.
I understand your feeling of resentment.
I could say "perhaps, look for someone else that would go that extra mile" but how does one know that until they're invested in the relationship.
I'm sorry she ignored your emails.