[TrailRunner14]

For the past several weeks, I’ve shared some pretty big things that have come forward with my counselor. We’ve worked through them in different ways and I’ve felt much better at the end of those sessions.

Mixed in with that, there have been stressful things that have happened with family and neighbors and altercations with my mom that have triggered me into a not so good place. I’ve brought these up with him and we’ve talked about them and I feel like I’ve worked through them. I guess.

I spent a lot of time to myself this weekend and felt like I didn’t know where to go from here. It feels really lonely.

It actually feels like I’ve walked into a dark cave and can’t find my way out. It borders on panic and I’m having a hard time calming myself.

I was thinking about all that I’ve brought out into the light these past few weeks and was wondering if that might be it. It’s like I’m trying to go back and sort everything out that has come forward and it’s overwhelming me.

I meet with him tomorrow and can talk with him about it then. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this.

I’m trying not to do this to myself but my attempts to stop it are not working.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm not sure exactly if I have experienced the same thing, but I have experienced going too fast in therapy and even though there are some successes, it often feels like a whirlpool afterward and I'm caught in a spin. I think I would tell your T about feeling overwhelmed. Your T should be able to help regulate the session so that it's not too much too fast. (((hugs))) Kit.

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I'm not sure exactly if I have experienced the same thing, but I have experienced going too fast in therapy and even though there are some successes, it often feels like a whirlpool afterward and I'm caught in a spin. I think I would tell your T about feeling overwhelmed. Your T should be able to help regulate the session so that it's not too much too fast. (((hugs))) Kit.

Yes, this makes me think of my third session with my current T where I just totally opened up to him about ex-Marriage counselor. And I felt totally exposed afterward and fearful he wouldn’t want to work with me anymore. Do I emailed him and he responded with something fairly long that...totally wasn’t what I needed. But anyway, I was scared and talked about it more with him next session, which helped. I’ve had other moments too where I fear I’ve overshared, that he wouldn’t want to deal with me anymore, that I was too much. But each time I tried to just check in with him and he reassured me. So, talk about your feelings and fears. Even if it’s scary.

[TrailRunner14]

It’s really felt ok and actually “good” after the sessions. In those sessions I didn’t feel like I had gone too far.

It feels like they have built on top of each other and kind of combined into one. I know that probably doesn’t make sense, but it feels that way.

I’m seeing a slinky being stretched out and being let go.

We’ve talked about plateaus before but I can’t remember what the topic was. Maybe that’s what this is. ?

ETA

I keep hearing the question, “What am I supposed to do with all of this?”

[skeksi]

I don’t know if it’s the same, but maybe? I have been sharing some big stuff with T lately—stuff that we didn’t even know was there—and have also been managing regular life stresses with a big one (buying/selling/moving).

My sessions with T are helpful, though challenging, but afterwards I tend to feel overwhelmed. I feel like “ohh, okay, some of the stuff that happened and happens to me is pretty awful.” But those awful feelings—horror, really—feel trapped inside me. So I pretty quickly turn to feeling hopeless, or sad, or angry. I just think it’s a lot of emotion all at once and it’s hard to parse out what I am feeling. I tend to just feel “bad.”

I do think getting a little meta and spending time talking about how talking about hard things makes me feel can slow the pace a bit and give me a chance to get my legs under me again.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by skeksi

I don’t know if it’s the same, but maybe? I have been sharing some big stuff with T lately—stuff that we didn’t even know was there—and have also been managing regular life stresses with a big one (buying/selling/moving).


My sessions with T are helpful, though challenging, but afterwards I tend to feel overwhelmed. I feel like “ohh, okay, some of the stuff that happened and happens to me is pretty awful.” But those awful feelings—horror, really—feel trapped inside me. So I pretty quickly turn to feeling hopeless, or sad, or angry. I just think it’s a lot of emotion all at once and it’s hard to parse out what I am feeling. I tend to just feel “bad.”


I do think getting a little meta and spending time talking about how talking about hard things makes me feel can slow the pace a bit and give me a chance to get my legs under me again.

Thank you for this!

You put words that I didn’t have to how I feel. I’m sorry that you experience this! Your understanding words are encouraging.

I think tomorrow I’ll just going to ask if we can just gather all this up and sort it out.

[skeksi]

Originally Posted by TrailRunner14

Thank you for this!

You put words that I didn’t have to how I feel. I’m sorry that you experience this! Your understanding words are encouraging.

I think tomorrow I’ll just going to ask if we can just gather all this up and sort it out.

That is my plan, too. I hope both of us are feeling better afterwards!

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by skeksi

That is my plan, too. I hope both of us are feeling better afterwards!

Me too, for both of us!

Thank you!!

Yes, I have experienced this too.

Recently. I posted about 'flooding' after uncovering a horrible trauma. I think overwhelmed is on a continuum with flooding....

But you know, after the intensity died down, I felt similar, and dark and depressed. After that, I felt better than I had in a long time. The trauma unearthed explained so much in my life! Now it's dissipated, and I feel much 'lighter". Better overall.

I hope you feel better soon.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by octoberful

Yes, I have experienced this too.


Recently. I posted about 'flooding' after uncovering a horrible trauma. I think overwhelmed is on a continuum with flooding....


But you know, after the intensity died down, I felt similar, and dark and depressed. After that, I felt better than I had in a long time. The trauma unearthed explained so much in my life! Now it's dissipated, and I feel much 'lighter". Better overall.


I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you!

[Borderline69]

Yes one time I flipped out and caused damage to someone's property. I was in fit of rage and almost didnt remember it happened. I never did apologize for my horrible behavior. This person in my mind was deserving my bpd traits went Into overdrive and I did it with no premeditation. I'm pretty sure they knew it was me and let me off the hook. Idk, maybe they were as crazy about me as I was about them and couldn't bring themself to seeing me punished 😉 yes 😊 I should have been charged for damages and wasn't. I'd never do that again and might even one day apologize. I felt a lot of guilt and shame once my rage was over, I still feel like a heal for what I did all those many years ago.