[Rive1976]

I think T is going to work with me on shame before we start doing EMDR again. I freaking hate it. I hate the way it makes me feel inside. I know its necessary though.

[zoiecat]

I totally know how you feel I hate EMDR as well but I know it's a necessary evil if I'm ever going to get better.

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by zoiecat

I totally know how you feel I hate EMDR as well but I know it's a necessary evil if I'm ever going to get better.

Why do you hate EMDR?

[zoiecat]

I hate the memories it brings up, the emotions I have during and after. *I also hate the onitial target we start with each time. We decided to focus on an issue from a colkege boyfriend because I would disdociate too bad from childhood memories (I have DID) but the college thing usually links me back to childhood anyway. I now see how history repeats itself.

It is just stressful and painful. I would rather just talk the entire session but he doesn't allow that very often. We have been working on the same memory for anout a year now and while I have made progress in a lot of ways I gave only recently got down to a starting SUD of 5-6.

DID makes everything slower and more difficult.

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by zoiecat

I hate the memories it brings up, the emotions I have during and after. *I also hate the onitial target we start with each time. We decided to focus on an issue from a colkege boyfriend because I would disdociate too bad from childhood memories (I have DID) but the college thing usually links me back to childhood anyway. I now see how history repeats itself.

It is just stressful and painful. I would rather just talk the entire session but he doesn't allow that very often. We have been working on the same memory for anout a year now and while I have made progress in a lot of ways I gave only recently got down to a starting SUD of 5-6.

DID makes everything slower and more difficult.

Woah. We haven't started processing traumatic memories yet but I had no clue it could possibly take that long for ONE memory. Holy smokes. I assumed that we could zip through the trauma themes one by one and resolve them one after the other. In like a year. All of it.
Maybe not then, aye?

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by zoiecat

I hate the memories it brings up, the emotions I have during and after. *I also hate the onitial target we start with each time. We decided to focus on an issue from a colkege boyfriend because I would disdociate too bad from childhood memories (I have DID) but the college thing usually links me back to childhood anyway. I now see how history repeats itself.

It is just stressful and painful. I would rather just talk the entire session but he doesn't allow that very often. We have been working on the same memory for anout a year now and while I have made progress in a lot of ways I gave only recently got down to a starting SUD of 5-6.

DID makes everything slower and more difficult.

I have a question about getting your number down. My T always starts with a memory then does the tapping then says how do you feel about that memory now . I never feel any different about the memory. I just lie and say my number is down because I dont know what the hell Im feeling most of the time anyway. After EMDR I feel exhausted though. I have had a memory surface since EMDR (one i know is real) and I have dissociated once in therapy with this T. Does this mean I am not really getting EMDR. Like is she or am I doing something wrong?

[Ididitmyway]

Originally Posted by Dnester

I have a question about getting your number down. My T always starts with a memory then does the tapping then says how do you feel about that memory now . I never feel any different about the memory. I just lie and say my number is down because I dont know what the hell Im feeling most of the time anyway. After EMDR I feel exhausted though. I have had a memory surface since EMDR (one i know is real) and I have dissociated once in therapy with this T. Does this mean I am not really getting EMDR. Like is she or am I doing something wrong?

Has she been trained to do EMDR? Is she certified? And if yes, is the certificate from a legitimate EMDR training place? There aren't that many places that were officially endorsed by the EMDR Institute, the original training place, as far as I know. So, you need to check if your therapist is really qualified to perform it.