Put a, ****ing "?" mark.

I would expect that strong need comes from a place of having been hurt and put down that is not yet healed, wouldn't you? I'm not a therapist of course -- and not on this forum to be or to pretend to be someone else's therapist. There's a difference between interacting with therapists and interacting with real people, 3D people, even 2D people online.

My aggression was kind of split off, too. And I had to act it out, first, in order to learn about it. Mostly with T's, who then weren't as understanding as Jessica's. And while it's great if a T can tolerate and understand that most people in real life don't or can't or won't.

It's a real challenge to integrate that aggression, I get that if that's part of what is involved. But part and parcel of the challenge, as I see it, is to try to find ways to accept pushback from people and comments that maybe weren't what I wanted but are what the other people had to offer. That's what they/we/I have. It's all free here and volunteer. Sometimes you get something you like and that is helpful, sometimes you don't.

And it continues......

So because you like some of my posts. I must portray myself to fit you?

That's a judgement. Can you see how it works?

Agression is fine. It's a part of who I am.
I quite like that part of myself.

I admit i do this a lot with your posts. Thats because they often show me a new vista or a new perspective on my life. Then yes i record my thoughts on your thread, altho not to bring the conversation round to me, nor to influence your thoughts. And when i was still seeing my t last year, i would then castigate him for not being more like your t.

I dont yet have a new process in place for myself, but im still third-person processing your t where i find i can. Thanks for sharing!

I don't find you judgemental at all! Or feel you've made it about you in any derogatory way. I've enjoyed your inputs.

I have closed this thread since we are getting notified that this post is triggering to some. It is under admin review and closed until that is complete.