What a horrific couple of weeks at work. Anxiety/Stress is ruling my life!!!!!!!!! I'm exhausted. I just want to sleep a lot.

I see T tomorrow. I emailed him. He did not email back.

Whatever. I don't care. I guess I'm now at the point where I don't give a @#$@# about him because I am so angry. Never thought it would happen. I am overstressed, anxiety-ridden, still devastated!

So, This is as good as my life is going to get. Constantly pushing uphill. All this @#$@## @#$%!! Welcome to me. Life sucks and will continue to do so. There is no light at the end of the tunnel for me. There is nothing but the same toruturous life. I'm sure I deserve to be torutured like this or surely somebody else would have intervened.

[dragonphoto]

((((((Soli)))))) you are not alone as you have a dragon willing to give out hugs.

aww Soliaree......we are intervening and saying reach out....I second Dragon with those hugs



love Jin xxx love your little people avatars, they make me smile.... please dont be alone, you have us to listen,,,,

huggies againx loads

YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE TORTURED!!!!!!



oh sol.. and you're so supportive and upbeat in chat. You said you were hurting sweetie, we coulda leaned on each other.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((sol)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

you won't let me off so easy in chat... so i would be a bad friend if i let you do what you are doing.

"no negative statements allowed" - sound familiar?

No putting my soliaree down. She's too important to me. So cut it out!

it's ok to be mad at your T... who ever said he was immune? We all get mad and it's as appropriate as any other emotion we might feel. So get mad. Stomp around. It feels good to get it out. It can release a lot of stress.

Oooh, i have an idea! Is there some way you could get some tough exercise? It can really do wonders for anger and stress. Good cardio and then a soak in a warm bath... maybe some liqueur over ice cream?

i dunno i'm throwing out ideas... wanna help.

[Kiya]

Here - you can hate me instead of yourself -

Go watch THE SECRET - and then watch it again... and again until you get all the "this is B*** S**** !!" out of your system. Then watch it agian and really let it get to you.

i did. my therapist MADE me... until i got all the BS out of my system about it. Then i watched it again until i GOT IT.

[starfishblue]

I understand and I care.
You have given me great advise and helped me a lot in chat.
Hope you are feeling better today.

[pachyderm]

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aww Soliaree......love your little people avatars

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Especially the little grim reaper one

Thanks you all, for all of the supportive posts! I appreciate all of you!

[MissCharlotte]

((Soliaree))

I was missing you!!

I have been depressed leately as well. It is during this time of year, when we get the least amount of sunlight, that the struggle feels most futile.

Hang in there. January is right around the corner and the days will be longer and you will be able to see the light. It's there, I promise!

Keep trudging. You can do it. You are not alone. We are in this together.