Couch 201: The Transformative Grammar Couch

Is this what is meant by "Mom's hammer"? In which case do not use!

Your an idjit

Feeling numb today. I can't believe that the person I worked with for 9 years and finally decided to truly trust in the end lied to me or at least implied he wasn't taking on therapy clients anymore and left me with that impression. I kind of feel crushed that he turned out to be like everyone else in my past.

At one point during my session when it was probably the most intense I couldn't take it anymore and I stuck my tongue out at L and said "Pardon me while I be 5 for a moment." That made both of us laugh and it lightened up the intensity to where I could handle it again...

...and consarn it I think, I probably, yeah, ok fine I admit it I love her again.

I realize of course that this comes as a shock to absolutely no one.

I was at the supermarket earlier today buying yogurt. It was on sale, with a digital coupon, it's my favorite brand, it usually costs more than I'm willing to pay for a cup of yogurt, and it's one of the few yogurt brands guaranteed to be gluten free. So I got the maximum possible allowed under the terms of the sale and the coupon.

This old lady in a cart was at the next self-checkout (partially blocking mine, but I could deal with it) with I assume her daughter. She watched me ringing up the yogurt, then said, "How much yogurt are you going to get?" I said, "as many as the coupon allows."

She watched me a bit more. Then she said, "Are you going to eat all that yogurt yourself?" I just ignored her. She was already being rude. I could tell it bothered her to be ignored, but I just kept on doing it. And finally she moved out of my way.

I think this is my future approach: ignore rude questions from strangers instead of trying to be polite. It felt very satisfying.

I don't know why they do it. My D and I were at a hardware store and this random older guy asked if we knew how to use a drill and then at the check out he asked if we were buying a fern and said good luck with that. Ignoring him didn't seem to help. I used to try to be polite but in some cases it only encourages them.

Her assumed daughter didn’t say anything?

I would of been like “Hey Ma, mind your business. Let the lady buy her stuff!”

You are a better woman than me...I wouldn’t have been able to ignore her..I would have asked her why she cared.

You could always reply back to them in a completely made-up language.

Good luck with a fern?

ETA: Economics practice exam question:

"Suppose researchers discover a new shape for cranberry bogs that allow cranberry growers to harvest more cranberries than with the old shape. If the demand for cranberries is relatively inelastic, the discovery will:"

I'm hung up on the idea that cranberry bogs have a shape. Aren't they just sort of boggy?

As I read that, what went through my mind was "How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?"
See what a super-intense therapy session does to my brain?

So couchies: today while my friend and I were out buying toys for the event this weekend, we went to Hobby Lobby cuz they had all these craft kits for 40% off. I bought a "Metallic Rock Art" kit for like $5. It is in my mind that I want to bring it with me to a session and L and I decorate rocks while we talk. I didn't even bring it up today because there was other pressing stuff. But for next week maybe.... or does that sound completely stupid to want to do that? Would anybody else do something like while talking? I know what we're going to be talking about next week and I think maybe this is a way I can not have to look at her while we talk maybe. I don't know. But the more I think about it the more I want to do it anyway.

My T would do it and be adorably silly in the process

Thanks. I'm glad to hear that!

Ok there is something seriously wrong with my brain. I just texted exT to ask if I could come back if I paid him privately ie full fee and only saw him once a month I really don't know what is wrong with me

Okay, I think I have mastered elasticity and the midpoint method (the formula used for it).

Now to knock a few small things off my to-do list and go watch Stranger Things.

I can't even say **** you to the guy

I think you will be able to someday.

..........ummmm did you forget about me?

Of course I would if it spoke to me.

I guess I was still in "muddled therapy brain" mode when I posted that! Later I did remember your cars. Oops! Sorry.

I'm sitting here looking at the box and wondering why I feel like I need confirmation that wanting to do this is okay. It's decorating rocks during a session for heaven's sake.

Thanks for putting up with me y'all.

What about knitting?

Hi couch! I'm back...for now at least. Had a whirlwind of a past week. ER, transfer to trauma hospital, transfer to inpatient psych, surgery, medical floor, back to psych. Got discharged today after 3 days. My T doesn't seem happy with the psychiatrist's decision to DC me today. He is actually letting me come see him in the morning when we haven't been meeting on Friday's this whole summer since he said he wasn't able to make it work out schedule wise. I'm not sure what tomorrow's session will bring.

Thanks CE, I crochet but yeah, I've thought about that and she has suggested it too but there's just something about this rock thing I dunno...

Hugs, that does seem like a pretty quick psych visit. Hope you're recovering OK from surgery and that your session this morning goes well.

I could definitely see your T being up for this, Art. Especially considering that she has a sand tray. In a way, it could be like art therapy. Whereas my T would probably look at me like I have two heads if I suggested this, but he's very different from yours. I mean, I imagine he'd be fine if I wanted to decorate one during session, as long as I didn't mess up his office, as he'd say it was my time to use as I wanted. Not sure he'd be willing to do one though. Again, pretty sure your T would be up for it, though she may want more of an explanation of the therapeutic value. Definitely worth asking though.

Omers, could it maybe help if you *do* call 911 whenever you feel at risk? That way you'd have a paper trail and could possibly use it in the future as evidence that he can't stay with you. I'm not sure how all these things work. It just seems like there has to be someplace that could take him, even if it's, say, in the next state or something. If you're on Facebook, I imagine there's a (nonpublic) group or two for parents in your situation. I know I've gotten quite a bit of support and suggestions (even just reading other people's posts) in groups for parents of kids on the spectrum. You wouldn't have to use your real name on Facebook if you were concerned about privacy and didn't have an account already.