Couch 211: The Stoffle couch

Granite. It sounds like you are being re-traumatized. Did you happen to see my post about my last session with my t? I think he was more relieved than i was. But honestly i felt like a cat sneaking out the door. I couldnt get that image out of my mind as we were talking during what became our last session, and i just decided to honor that vision! Cats dont lie, right?

Granite. Nice to see you again.

It does sound like you need to stop seeing your therapist; she's creating too many issues at this point. You seem to have a plan in the works, so that's good.

i so do need to stop seeing her and get a t who is going to help.it is just so hard

A cliched quote I rather like " the journey of a 1000 steps, begins with just one".

I think just even recognizing that you need to stop is the first thing.

I decided to go ahead and report ER doctor to the medical board. It probably won't go anywhere, but maybe if he has to deal with a bit of non-sense from some oversight committee (or whatever it is) he will think twice before treating a patient like dirt.

Feeling fragile. Does this happen to anyone else? Whenever I start feeling a little better then I feel like people expect me to just do better and better and not have set-backs, and that feels like pressure that I can't cope with.

Hugs. Yes, I tend to have this issue, too. Like if T mentions that I seem to have been doing/coping well lately, or if I happen to think that on my own. It was also an issue a couple times when ex-MC said it seemed like things were going well with H. I think some of it is tied to my fear that Dr. T will say, "You've been doing well lately, do you want to consider reducing sessions?" Though he should know better by now from the last time he even hinted at something like that (he's said it's entirely up to me). But it's also my fear that if things seem to be going OK in life, something will inevitably go wrong. Like, maybe I'm coping OK right now, while things are going mostly OK (say, with H, my D, friends, work, other family, etc.), but I fear as soon as one thing shifts, then I'll fall apart.

Absolutely.

My massage therapist had a family emergency so I wasn't able to go last week. I'm feeling loads better today. At least I'm able to bend over.

It is our first finalist for our job interviewing on campus today and tomorrow and it's already aaaargh. For instance, dinner. Multiple times told 6, multiple times told 6:45. Then it turns out it is 6:45 because the restaurant had no reservations available at 6 and one search committee member just balks because apparently he turns into a pumpkin at 7:45. So change of restaurants so we can eat at 6, to a place without gluten-free items on their menu except for some kind of ale (they told the secretary they could handle it).

And I have the department credit card to pay and apparently I have to write a detailed description of everyone's meal on some form. I'm thinking about asking them to give reviews.

Faculty job interviews are one more ordeal in a decades-long academic hazing process. I can identify with turning into a pumpkin by 7:45, but your gut should take priority. I hope the dinner is less annoying than all that sounds. But at least you aren't the candidate who has to jump through all those exhausting hoops? The day after the dinner is truly grueling.

I've never been to a dinner place for 6pm. Usually it's always started at 8pm.

If you had the card I would have stuck with 6.45pm- ale isn't a meal.

And people think we lead the life of riley.

Hush your mouth!!

Your lucky you have me around to remember your anachronisms.

If your gonna be with me, the senior early bird dinner starts at 4:30 pm.

Isnt this stifle couch over yet??!

hi couch. i missed youse guys. thought i'd drop in and say hello. probably won't be around much but wanted to at least say hello. life post-therapy is good, all the way around actually. i was thinking about therapy and y'all because i recently ran into ex-T at Costco haha. We chatted amiably while waiting in line then went our separate ways, and i was no worse for wear thankfully! She looked, well, just like a normal person and I didn't get all those stupid-annoying-i'm-in-love-with-you feelings. Which was the best thing of all!!! I'm taking Belly Dancing again this semester and still loving it, writing a lot, drumming pretty often, and have been painting pretty often too. Abstract, floral-looking stuff.


Anyway.


HI!
-Artie, the Sequal! (formerly ArtieSwimsOn)

She's got more hoops tomorrow. More interviews, sample class, etc.

I do feel for her (the candidate). I just think, suck it up just for one night for 7:45 pm pumpkins.

Hi!!! You've been missed! Kit

It is our job to be cultural historians for these lot.

Here's my most recent little painting, still using the little 4x6 canvases from the dollar store. Playing with monochrome. Let's see if I remember how to add an attachment.

Good to see you, Art. Glad it's going well.

Great to hear from you, Art, and glad to hear things are going so well!

thanks you guys!



Sending good thoughts out to everybody and hugs to whoever wants.