Is this a sign of trust?

Thanks everyone, I feel so much better after these empowering messages.

Thanks!

I think people could help more,if they had an idea of what the letter was about
You mentioned that his wife was a problem. Was the letter about her?

If so, I wonder if your feelings toward him are interfering with your progress

The letter mentioned abuse during my teenage years. It was to give him more history. It had nothing to do with her.

I’m okay with his wife now. She was actually nice to me a few days ago. She wanted to make sure I was ok because the day before when I talked to her, I was sobbing.

The letter symbolized my way of trying to show him that I trust him.

He called me last night and we talked for a few minutes and I apologized.

This is just a hard week for me. I’m also in physical pain with a tear in my shoulder and the ER referred me to an orthopedic surgeon.

I’m back on track. He made sure during the phone call last night.

He usually reads my letters.

I really want to make sure he gets that information though.

If anyone wants to see the letter, I can send through PM. It’s very personal and may be triggering though.

Hope,

I am very sorry that you are having to deal with traumatic abuse issues and that I misunderstood your situation with the letter. I really didn't mean to be intrusive. I am glad that you worked it out with her and that he apologized to you. I hope your shoulder gets taken care of soon. That must be very painful along with everything else that you are going through.

Thanks so much.

I’m not sure if he has read that particular letter yet but on Wednesday, I’m going to read it to him. I’m nervous about that.

I’m getting used to her being at the office. She used to just work at the front desk occasionally but now she has been helping with their TMS treatment and between that, works at the front desk. I guess I just miss the office manager because she is always nice to me. And then there was another new office person, and we had a complicated first month but now I really like her a lot too. I actually talked to her the most during the rough few days. She was so patient.

I feel better emotionally today.

However, my shoulder is really hurting today and that pain almost has me in tears. I’m scheduled to see an orthopedic surgeon on Tuesday and I’m nervous because I hope that I don’t need surgery.

I’ve spent the weekend doing self care and I feel better today.

My plan for the next session is to read my letter out loud to my T. I’m nervous and scared and this is huge for me.

I will let you all know how it goes.