Couch 217: The Order of the Phoenix couch

And its our most densely populated state

I hate the news too. I try to avoid watching it at all anymore. It's just insane. All of it. Cases in my state (Arizona) are going up like crazy right now, like at the rate of 4,000 a DAY they are saying lately. I can't fathom it. I just can't. True there are over 7 million people in this state but still.... 4,000 new cases a DAY?!?! And masks are required now in several counties? I just don't get it. At all.

I think the people who truly thought it was a hoax were caught completely unawares. There are some news stories about that, if you want to believe them.

Eta - and when people heard the president say it was a democratic hoax, they just heard (medical) hoax, not (economic) ploy, which would have been more accurate as to his intent.

I just returned home yesterday morning from another trip to see my brother in law with H and the kids. I think the 2nd time was worse than the first.
I'm leaving again in the morning but this time by myself without H and the kids. For 6 days...yay! My mom and stepdad are driving basically across country to the east coast for my grandmother's 90th birthday and invited me to join them halfway. They are stopping in the midwest to visit one of my brother's and my favorite person (my cousin) lives nearby. So I'm going to visit her and then fly back on Wednesday.

Our CPS caseworker came by today and I told him about what has been happening still with H, SH and the hospitalization. He said he's going to do some research and get back to my next week when he comes out for another home visit.

Another outing for Soluble Lost in today's session. I am still putting myself back together.

So I gotta take Esther to the vet and the earliest appointment they had was the 25th at nine. Which means I had to cancel my T appointment. My cat's health is way more important than my T appointment at this point in time. Cat is diabetic, probably has cancer, and I think is 16 years old. I kept saying 15 but I realized I've been saying 15 for over a year now. That doesn't make sense! She's been gaining weight. She has had some diarrhea, thrown up some, and she isn't always urinating in her box. She also doesn't want to be touched or held as much. So some behavioral issues and some physical issues. I'm worried about her. So my Dad and I agreed we needed to take her in and get her checked out. It's only been a few months since she has been at the vets but something seems up with her. But of course it has to land on the same day as my T appointment! Argh. I texted T to see if she had something the next Saturday. She said she would be in touch with me but I haven't heard since then (it's only been since yesterday). But I am disappointed that I won't get to see T on the 25th. I'm definitely worried about Esther though so I am glad we will be able to get her checked out. I'm trying to prepare myself in case the vet says it is time to let her go. I don't want to but I don't want her in pain 24/7 either. Since I'm on furlough two days a week my parents will front the payment to the vet and then I can just pay them back. So that's nice.

I saw Pdoc via telehealth yesterday. His picture kept cutting in and out which was very annoying. I saw his new therapy dog Lucy. A King Charles Cocker Spaniel I think he said. She's cute. She is going to go through whatever classes dogs have to go through to be a therapy dog and so forth. He shares the office with his partner who does therapy so I imagine she will be using the dog more than he will but still. Super cute.

Hugs, Kit, I hope that Esther is ok! Because you're furloughed a couple days a week for now, could you see if T could maybe do a session one of those days instead?

Hugs Kit, sending good thoughts for Esther, I hope she's ok!

I think having a therapy dog is great. My t used to bring her dog to sessions during year 1 that was over 8 yrs ago now so I don't know if the dog is still around or not. Back then it was good because I could pet the dog and it calmed me down and kept me from being all up in my head and stuff. Easier to talk to t while petting her dog.

Is there a reason you have to go on these trips with H to see his brother? Can you stop doing this in the future? It seems like it's not going well.

Glad you're going on a trip that you're actually looking forward to!

These two trips were supposed to be mini family vacations to get away from my father and try to have some fun. I'm trying to do things with the kids to have fun. It wasn't all terrible. I did get to meet up with a long time Facebook friend that I hadn't met in person, so that was good. And did celebrate 2 of my kids' birthdays while there so they had fun.

But I get what you're saying.

And thank you, I'm really looking forward to seeing my cousin. Twice in 6 months is a record for us. Usually it's a few years between seeing each other.

I've really been struggling for a while, but it's gotten particularly bad since Tuesday. My T is stupid, my H is stupid, everyone is stupid and hurts me. I just want the suffering to end.

My county’s school system just voted to do all virtual through January 28. I’m despondent...

Hi Kit,

I am very sorry to hear that Esther isn't feeling well. Is there no way your vet would be able to see her sooner? 9 days is a long time if she isn't feeling well. Perhaps you could impress upon them the urgency of the situation?

Kit--if she is that miserable, maybe an emergency vet?

ETA: Fondue. It's what's for dinner.

Because it's my friday we went and picked up dinner from texas roadhouse they have a really good deal there, $9.99 early bird or whatever specials. i got the herb crusted chicken, green beans and applesauce. So delish!!

Meatball sub, chocolate shake, and greek salad for tomorrow probably, im stuffed. But the shake was sooooo yummy, i havent had ice cream in forever! Okay, a month. But in summer, thats a long time! Esp when YOU LIVE RIGHT OVER A CONVENIENCE STORE!!! But its closed due to covid

SK i hope Esther will be ok.

I have recurring dreams of houses. The original dream was replaced by another dream where the house we live in has a house attached to by a corridor. In the rooms in the attached house there are things and occasionally people that i would interact with. Shortly after meeting my exT the original dream house where i couldnt get out of the kitvhen was replaced by this dream . Last night this house had changed instead of staying there i hot the sense that i owned the house and the extended house which had a slightly creepy vibe was now much smaller and friendlier and none of the people or objects could be seen. The house was now identified as number 1 instead of 1 and 1a.

The lady from the efucation dept came to speak to my daughter. I got the feeling it was just a token gesture as she had no real ideas about classes my daughter could take and just suggested a get ready for work program. She looks after 5 schools so i assume she is a bit snowed under this year with the kids not coping with the new curriculum.

Another thing i am getting tired of is people apologising profusely for coughing and sneezing. Its flu season here .our town hasnt had a reported case for 9 weeks now. I am sure this will change with the outbreak down south.

My daughters dog chewed the buttons off my switch controllers. I am really annoyed at myself because i left it lying on the bed while i went out. After the destruction of my book i should have known better.

I am really whingey yoday. I am sorry

I have recurring dreams of houses too. Space, i dream about having space. Rooms. But mostly lately i dream about having my old cars but not their insurance, and living in a hotel for work, and having to whats the army term for pack up and get out? I always have way too much shyte.