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Old Aug 02, 2020, 03:18 PM
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Oof. That's always a hard decision for me, because I don't want to work if I'm too sick to get the job done, but also work can help me me from getting to a really bad place (it keeps me busy, makes me feel useful).

Do you have a gut feeling about what you want to do?
No, but I've really screwed up at work and it's going to be noticed soon. I've been having a lot of trouble doing anything work related so I have gotten almost nothing done the last three weeks. I feel like a failure and I'm getting desperate. This is all my fault so I should just own up to this and deal with it. But I'm also feeling fragile and don't think I can take work piling on and adding to the beating I'm already giving myself. At the same time, I could really use a break. I don't know what I'd do with it though. He mentioned getting on meds and finding a group to attend and getting my medical issues sorted. But I could do all that while working.

There's also just something about him treating this all serious like that makes me feel uncomfortable and is making me want to not go to session tomorrow. He said something today about this being a "mental health crisis" and that I'm at risk, I guess of hurting myself. I don't understand why when someone starts to take me seriously and suggest serious solutions it makes me want to back away quickly.

I have no idea what to do about work or any of this.
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 03:41 PM
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No, but I've really screwed up at work and it's going to be noticed soon. I've been having a lot of trouble doing anything work related so I have gotten almost nothing done the last three weeks. I feel like a failure and I'm getting desperate. This is all my fault so I should just own up to this and deal with it. But I'm also feeling fragile and don't think I can take work piling on and adding to the beating I'm already giving myself. At the same time, I could really use a break. I don't know what I'd do with it though. He mentioned getting on meds and finding a group to attend and getting my medical issues sorted. But I could do all that while working.

There's also just something about him treating this all serious like that makes me feel uncomfortable and is making me want to not go to session tomorrow. He said something today about this being a "mental health crisis" and that I'm at risk, I guess of hurting myself. I don't understand why when someone starts to take me seriously and suggest serious solutions it makes me want to back away quickly.

I have no idea what to do about work or any of this.
Dang. That's a lot at once, NP.

For what it's worth, I think if it were *me* I would take the time off, mostly because what you're saying about not being able to take work giving you a hard time on top of everything else really resonates with me.
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 03:43 PM
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 05:47 PM
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h walked a little over 2 miles this afternoon on the treadmill while watching tv. i don't know how he does it. i'm gonna go see if I can get the app installed on my tablet and then try one of the pre-programmed thingies. we'll see how it goes...
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 05:57 PM
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I would like to virtual reality devices given out with treadmills then you can choose "where" you walk like along an never ending beach, or forest trail or country side you could heve whatever you want in it.
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 05:59 PM
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I have been thinking of getting one of the smaller treadmills as my feet and ankles at the moment wont let do off road walking
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 06:00 PM
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You could have little mysteries to solve in your vr walk
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 06:10 PM
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h walked a little over 2 miles this afternoon on the treadmill while watching tv. i don't know how he does it. i'm gonna go see if I can get the app installed on my tablet and then try one of the pre-programmed thingies. we'll see how it goes...
I suggest downloading the peloton app and trying the free trial. There is a facebook page for app users (although the android app is not as good as the apple one I hear - it is also available on amazon through the firestick and maybe on the kindle if you have one). They have walks as short as 10 min and a wide range of instructors and music choices. And it is free (I did not even have to give a credit card # or anything when I tried it) for 30 days I think (during the height of pandemic hooha I think it was 90 days - I don't know if they have gone back to 30 or not). I use it on my elliptical - you can modify their chattered instructions any way you like and while I ignore it - I think you might like some of the content of their chatter. I also find their roller stretches quite useful
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 06:23 PM
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There's also an iFit app that's tied to Nordictrak treadmill that my H got--not sure if they also offer a free trial. If so you could have two months of free trials (one then the other).
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 06:58 PM
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Oof. I'm not gonna see J until Wednesday. I got my four hours of studying in today but it was a heck of a struggle. For some reason I've been missing my parents and worrying about them dying (I think it's because I didn't take my MAOI for a few weeks and the lack of meds is making me anxious--I restarted it a few days ago). I'm feeling crappy and alone.
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 07:02 PM
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Hugs for everyone who is hurting.

The girls and I made empanadas today, and similarly to when I make spaghetti, there's enough for a small army. Come for dinner!

I did something I'm very ashamed of today, and I'm having trouble coming to terms with the guilt. I probably need therapy! (Never going back, but it would be the only productive thing to do in this situation.)
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 07:10 PM
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I suggest downloading the peloton app and trying the free trial. There is a facebook page for app users (although the android app is not as good as the apple one I hear - it is also available on amazon through the firestick and maybe on the kindle if you have one). They have walks as short as 10 min and a wide range of instructors and music choices. And it is free (I did not even have to give a credit card # or anything when I tried it) for 30 days I think (during the height of pandemic hooha I think it was 90 days - I don't know if they have gone back to 30 or not). I use it on my elliptical - you can modify their chattered instructions any way you like and while I ignore it - I think you might like some of the content of their chatter. I also find their roller stretches quite useful

nice, thanks. i'll check it out!!
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 07:11 PM
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I would like to virtual reality devices given out with treadmills then you can choose "where" you walk like along an never ending beach, or forest trail or country side you could heve whatever you want in it.

that would be great. this app doesn't have that, but i'm going to see what else i can find. that would be great. h likes watching tv, but for me i would prefer like a forest trail or something!
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 07:14 PM
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I didn't quite figure out the app yet that they suggest. But I did try the 'weight loss' preprogrammed workout that is part of the treadmill, and set it for 15 minutes. it was kinda fun actually cuz it changes incline and speed at intervals starting out at .5 mph to warmup and then gradually getting up to 4 mph (I was almost running lol) and then back down. a little over a half a mile in 15 minutes. I am going to try getting up 15 minutes earlier tomorrow and doing that same thing, before i shower see how it affects my mood the rest of the day. I gots to do something.
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 07:29 PM
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 07:45 PM
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I am ridiculously annoyed that “elven” is not on the word list in today’s NYT Spelling Bee.

(Neither is villein, but I didn’t expect it to be.)
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 09:40 PM
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I am ridiculously annoyed that “elven” is not on the word list in today’s NYT Spelling Bee.

(Neither is villein, but I didn’t expect it to be.)
I haven't paid for a subscription, so they only let you enter so many correct words, but I wish they would show you the list of valid words when you're done or give up.

"Elven" seems like a pretty basic word, even though the spell checker here doesn't like it.
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Old Aug 02, 2020, 09:59 PM
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"Elven" seems like a pretty basic word, even though the spell checker here doesn't like it.
I know—have they never read Tolkein?
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 06:49 AM
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 06:52 AM
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If you have somewhere to rest your tablet, Artie, then there are virtual walks on YouTube...maybe they'd work as treadmill rides?
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 06:58 AM
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 07:07 AM
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No, but I've really screwed up at work and it's going to be noticed soon. I've been having a lot of trouble doing anything work related so I have gotten almost nothing done the last three weeks. I feel like a failure and I'm getting desperate. This is all my fault so I should just own up to this and deal with it. But I'm also feeling fragile and don't think I can take work piling on and adding to the beating I'm already giving myself. At the same time, I could really use a break. I don't know what I'd do with it though. He mentioned getting on meds and finding a group to attend and getting my medical issues sorted. But I could do all that while working.

There's also just something about him treating this all serious like that makes me feel uncomfortable and is making me want to not go to session tomorrow. He said something today about this being a "mental health crisis" and that I'm at risk, I guess of hurting myself. I don't understand why when someone starts to take me seriously and suggest serious solutions it makes me want to back away quickly.

I have no idea what to do about work or any of this.
When I was in a bad way, my psychiatric NP's office suggested arranging a leave from work to do intensive outpatient. I didn't end up needing it because I started outpatient DBT, but I do think something like that could be helpful. When my dad screwed up at work, the fact that he went for treatment (alcohol rehab, in his case) was the only thing that kept him from experiencing serious consequences at work.

Meds are also a great option for many people. If you have serious depression and haven't tried medication, you are likely doing yourself a disservice.

Getting the medical and psychological treatment you need could be a good start on the path to being kinder to yourself. We're all rooting for you here! Maybe taking a little break from life to get on a different treatment track could make things easier for you overall.
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 07:23 AM
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so i found out that my bladder cancer has returned .this is a week after my stepmother has passed away of the same cancer. my father is an endless stream of needs sense her passing because she did everything.every day it is something he cant seem to crap without me telling him how to wipe his butt. he seems to be suffering from the beginnings of dementia. he is having serious memory problems . i have no help in taking care of him . my family sucks .he has a sister and brother .the sister will not help at all and the brother only shows up to take things from the house to sell them . im overwhelmed. when i told my father that my cancer is back his response was **** what do i do now. WOW i have cancer again and it is still all about him. im overwhelmed scared and wish i didnt exist
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 07:34 AM
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Old Aug 03, 2020, 07:55 AM
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i hate my family except my son and husband all they do is take and take and take .my father can get out of his own head. he is exhausting. every day pay my bills make phone calls so i can cash in on all insurance polices. deal with the probate issues so i can get more money .its all about money .my stepmother hasnt even been gone for 14 days and his brother has already removed anything of value from the house . she was a hoarder so i have been throwing things away around the brother taking things .we have already filled a 40 yard dumpster and working on the second one . and my father is non stop demanding everything to be done yesterday. im so tired .its only me my husband ans son dealing with the mess except his brother showing up before i clean out a room to be sure to get anything of value .im so tired. he wont let anyone in there to do it because he is embarrassed and has me to do it .i cant say no and im so so tired he is relentless
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