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Lemoncake · 01:18 PM

Have stay alive playing on loop.

Didn't go in today either- just couldn't face class and the thought of it made me want to cry. Past two days I've been waking up with bad anxiety.

38 days without you now.

Jan 11, 2021 at 02:06 PM

T, I'm sad. I'd run to you to tell you but it's about you. Would you push me away? This work takes more courage than I think I have.

LonesomeTonight · Jan 11, 2021 at 07:13 PM

Dear T,
Trying to resist asking you if you have any openings tomorrow. Not sure why that email about my D's potential grade hit me so hard, it just did. Maybe it's just on top of everything else? Perhaps I'm not ready to try twice a week next week either...or maybe this week is just tough and next week I'll be OK with twice? I already said I wanted three times the week after due to my upcoming birthday (how can you not remember after 3 years that my birthday corresponds with a bad anniversary? and had to ask me why I'd be more stressed that week?).

Though I suppose asking if we can switch from Wednesday to Tuesday this week wouldn't change any of that. Now I'm trying to remember if Tuesday is the day when you generally have fewer openings...though I guess it wouldn't hurt to ask regardless.
Love,
LT

LonesomeTonight · Jan 11, 2021 at 08:34 PM

Dear T,
Was 8:15 too late to send you a scheduling text? Sigh. I thought it was 9 or possibly 8:30 at the earliest? Hope I didn't mess up. I shouldn't have asked. Just feel like I'm falling apart here...
Love,
LT

LonesomeTonight · Jan 11, 2021 at 09:35 PM

Dear T,
Thanks for fitting me in. And for adding the comment about D to your text reply. So clearly you read the email, too.

Love,
LT

WastingAsparagus · Jan 11, 2021 at 09:38 PM

I don't feel that good today. Why is it that my mood fluctuates so much? I know I do all this good stuff for myself and I don't know why I don't feel that good still.

Quietmind 2 · Jan 11, 2021 at 11:31 PM

Hey T, please reply to my email

Merope · Jan 12, 2021 at 07:59 AM

I feel a bit fragile and wish I could be in the same room as you. Hopefully soon.

Love,
M

LostOnTheTrail · Jan 12, 2021 at 08:33 AM

Thanks for your email. The fact that you know makes it easier.
I will endeavour to take care of Emotional C.

Taylor27 · Jan 12, 2021 at 09:06 AM

Dear T, I feel very depressed this week the memories of Grandpa losing him a7 years ago are so overwhelming. It's so hard to put my emotions to words. I feel like you are the only one who really understands that the emotional pain is so real.

I feel cutoff from allot of my friends, family when I feel this way.

Rive. · Jan 12, 2021 at 10:59 AM

Can you make this ache go away?

Please?

nottrustin · Jan 12, 2021 at 01:24 PM

I received the COVID shot today. I was nervous and have been apprehensive do to potential side effects. The deciding factor is if I want things to get back to normal so I can see people and eventually go back to in person sessions with you I have to do it. I really hate teletherapy.

comrademoomoo · Jan 12, 2021 at 01:52 PM

I am so annoyed that you aren't perfect.

Lostislost · Jan 12, 2021 at 02:22 PM

I really really wish we had worked more with touch before Covid happened. I know I can’t expect it now, with social distancing, but I feel sad that you never offer to touch me or for me to touch you. I feel confused that you don’t think that would be the most healing thing for me. I don’t feel like it’s possible for any touching to be misinterpreted, my need for it is pure.

I feel like a child that has to beg for love and touch from their parent, while knowing the parent doesn’t want to love or touch me. I’m done begging and expecting and asking. I really hope you are ok, it’s unlike you to take another holiday so soon.

Mountaindewed · Jan 12, 2021 at 03:30 PM

Thanks for being so understanding about my cancellation. And I appreciate you saying you understand and hope I feel better. I felt sick all this morning but this afternoon I feel better. The antibiotics are working. I do feel bad about cancelling. I haven’t seen you in 6 weeks. But I guess I’m not that dependent on you anymore if I’m putting my health issues first instead of being non talkative during a session because I don’t feel good.

ArtieTheSequal · Jan 12, 2021 at 05:12 PM

i want to talk more about what i started with last week that we never got back to. i think i know exactly what you're gonna say. but i need to talk about it anyway.

*Beth* · Jan 12, 2021 at 06:17 PM

I feel like I'm an overmedicated, complete bore lately. I'm sorry.

GeminiNZ · Jan 12, 2021 at 10:00 PM

Glad it's therapy day tomorrow. I know i just got through a three-week break, and we've been emailing, but i need my session time. It's like i finally got back into the therapy room after your break and then 90min went by in a flash and it was back to waiting again.

You'd think after all these years i'd be able to handle the week between sessions with a little more class and a little less whining. But here we are, with you going about your week and me being a big ol' whiny, needy, want-y baby.

See you in 22.5 hours. Not that i'm counting.

Lostislost · 05:38 AM

I realise I might have been the 'Guy' in our relationship. Messaging you, giving you gifts, being overly keen. I hate it when Guy does that to me, but the difference is I tell him I hate it. I never reciprocate so I don't encourage him. Is that what you are doing? I would rather plain old honesty from you.

Maybe I can see your wife for reiki and get some touch therapy that way. I wonder if you would let me do that.

ArtieTheSequal · Jan 13, 2021 at 07:52 AM

I awoke with a heavy, sad heart this morning, L. I'm going to go drum for a couple minutes before I start work to see if that will help. Everything's just getting to me again I guess. I'd been handling everything pretty well but this morning... I dunno. Maybe I just had a nightmare that I don't remember and this is residuals from that. Sigh. Well I will see you on Friday.

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Lemoncake Roses are falling. Member Since May 2017 Location: Seattle. Posts: 9,800 (SuperPoster!) 7 10.3k hugs given	Jan 11, 2021 at 11:58 AM #641 Have stay alive playing on loop. Didn't go in today either- just couldn't face class and the thought of it made me want to cry. Past two days I've been waking up with bad anxiety. 38 days without you now. __________________ Last edited by Lemoncake; Jan 11, 2021 at 01:18 PM..
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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,918 (SuperPoster!) 9 75.2k hugs given	Jan 11, 2021 at 08:34 PM #644 Dear T, Was 8:15 too late to send you a scheduling text? Sigh. I thought it was 9 or possibly 8:30 at the earliest? Hope I didn't mess up. I shouldn't have asked. Just feel like I'm falling apart here... Love, LT
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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,918 (SuperPoster!) 9 75.2k hugs given	Jan 11, 2021 at 09:35 PM #645 Dear T, Thanks for fitting me in. And for adding the comment about D to your text reply. So clearly you read the email, too. Love, LT
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Jan 11, 2021 at 09:38 PM #646 I don't feel that good today. Why is it that my mood fluctuates so much? I know I do all this good stuff for myself and I don't know why I don't feel that good still. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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Quietmind 2 Poohbah Member Since Jan 2020 Location: Somewhere I'm working to leave Posts: 1,243 4 8 hugs given	Jan 11, 2021 at 11:31 PM #647 Hey T, please reply to my email
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Merope Veteran Member Member Since Jan 2018 Location: Somewhere in a cloud Posts: 719 6 479 hugs given	Jan 12, 2021 at 07:59 AM #648 I feel a bit fragile and wish I could be in the same room as you. Hopefully soon. Love, M
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Taylor27 healing from trauma Member Since Dec 2017 Location: Alberta Posts: 30,439 (SuperPoster!) 6 24.4k hugs given	Jan 12, 2021 at 09:06 AM #650 Dear T, I feel very depressed this week the memories of Grandpa losing him a7 years ago are so overwhelming. It's so hard to put my emotions to words. I feel like you are the only one who really understands that the emotional pain is so real. I feel cutoff from allot of my friends, family when I feel this way.
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Rive. Magnate Member Since Sep 2013 Posts: 2,028 10	Jan 12, 2021 at 10:59 AM #651 Can you make this ache go away? Please?
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nottrustin Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2014 Location: n/a Posts: 4,819 10 375 hugs given	Jan 12, 2021 at 01:24 PM #652 I received the COVID shot today. I was nervous and have been apprehensive do to potential side effects. The deciding factor is if I want things to get back to normal so I can see people and eventually go back to in person sessions with you I have to do it. I really hate teletherapy. __________________
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ArtieTheSequal Writing my way through... Member Since Feb 2020 Location: In the desert Posts: 7,378 (SuperPoster!) 4 5,836 hugs given	Jan 12, 2021 at 05:12 PM #656 i want to talk more about what i started with last week that we never got back to. i think i know exactly what you're gonna say. but i need to talk about it anyway.
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Beth catches the flowers Member Since Jul 2019 Location: Downtown Vibes, California Posts: 15,701 (SuperPoster!) 4 23.7k hugs given	Jan 12, 2021 at 06:17 PM #657 I feel like I'm an overmedicated, complete bore lately. I'm sorry. __________________
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