i take it all back. He's awesome.

i loved the idea of kicking him in the shins and staying. hahaha, awesome.

i went in and told him i hated him... and it went from there. i was all mad and bristley.. but he said he was really frustrated with me because i was constantly testing him and setting the bar higher. i told him my anger vanished when he said that... between my anger and his frustration we had the most incredible, productive session EVER.

he said he had thought about it all over the weekend.. and that moved me.

i don't think i have ever been so open to him before, and he was so genuine and sincere... he was so caring.. just real.

the whole thing confuses my view of the world you know?

he had said on the phone on thursday that he cared... but i couldn't deal with that.. i was so hurt and so angry with him. He had made a bad call, and he fully says so, but he's right, i don't know when he could have taken a different road. i think he was kind of stuck too... bad call? yeah, what was the other options? not many.

today though... he said he cared again... he said it a couple of times... and i sort of, kind of, want to, but not sure.. believe him. i am so conflicted. He is genuine, sincere and so damn caring and kind. Damn him. It is hard to believe no one *can* care if i accept that HE cares... %#@&#!.

so crappy doodle...

he cares... NOW what do i do? My brain does not know how to handle this.

i want to run away, hide, quake in fear. Makes me want to cry... almost did.

omg. he cares. he said he did.. he said what i feel matters to him and he talked about how he had thought about it over the weekend... you don't do that if you don't care right?

it was such a monumental session. i am shaken and i don't know how to process everything. So much said.. so much i already have forgotten. So overwhelming.

i have therapy high

and omg.. when i left i had to pee SO bad

[Perna]

I'm so happy for you that it turned out so well!

Here's a reward:

omg, those are the most revolting teddies i have ever seen.... can i try again for a different reward? hahaha

[scott88keys]

((((Perna))))
I laughed so hard when I saw your pics. For cryin' out loud! It was the bright spot in my day! Thanks!

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How wonderful! You've completed one of our tasks as clients, and that is to have our T's think of us in between sessions. Congratulations!

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And yet another task completed, LOL. He cares! Isn't that wonderful? I'm so happy for you. I care too!

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Bask in the glow of T high!

What a wonderful session, Fluffers. Hugs to you!

[chaotic13]

Sounds great! Glad things worked out between the two of you.

[MissCharlotte]

AWWWWWWESOME!

I dont' think you are a jackass. But if you are the jackass, what does that make him? The Mule?

Nice stuff Jello. Doesn't it feel good? Hang onto those feelings. You earned 'em!

[tulips30]

1st of al.....YIPPEEEE!!!!!!!! SKIPPEEEEE......Jellofluff sounds happy & had a good session and she deserves it.
I'm happy!!!!

2nd....those plush toys are beyond any description. I can't stop giggling

3rd...I now know what the two things are that we clients aspire to.. 1) to be "thought about" between session 2) to be told we are "cared about"

MY QUESTION???? I aspire to these as well. How do I get them? I'm jealous and I wanna play. Don't know how.

[sunrise]

Jello, what an awesome session. I'm so happy for you.

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It is hard to believe no one *can* care if i accept that HE cares... %#@&#!.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Touche! This opens up a new path for you.

yeah... what a monkey wrench in my machine huh? damn damn damn (why isn't damn blocked? ooooops lips zipped)

i feel so damn (hee hee) good about this. Awesome in fact. like wow, i can maybe tell this dude stuff i hadn't been able to. He did not in fact shreek and run... or my worst fear, tell he that is not part of what we do here. or...ugh.. ignore it, briush it off.

SO YAY THERAPY HIGH FOR ME.

of course, we all know that by thursday he won't care and neither will i and then we'll be back to tug of war.

yes home base.... static.. static... mission one accomplished static... weekend thoughts. mission static... mission 2 potential a success... static... home base... have forgotten mission three... over.

jajajajaja

tulips...where have you been? missed your PM's... let me know how you are. And sweetie, if we knew the answer we'd be very wealthy. for me it has meant 10 months of work and a blow up between t and i

me so happy

[lauren_helene]

I love your thread title, that is something I would say about me.

That is great news on your session. I'm glad he told you his feelings and it all worked out.

I'm always testing my T too. We've discussed that before.

Congrats !