Not doing very well

On Friday I found out my nieghbour passed away. We did talk allot when I walked by her house or saw her shopping. I knew she was not well and waiting for a kidney transplant. Also she was suffering with depression, marital issues. She trusted me enough to share. It's been a rough weekend for me so far.


I feel like im lost in my past all over again. I had a awesome session last Thursday and now I feel like my world is crumbiling again. All I can think about is my losses in my life, feel scared about my future here.

Do I reach out to my therapist ask for extra support or should I wait til when I see her on March 12th? I feel this has really taken me back a few steps in my recovery and feel defeated. I am also dissociating allot not really present or grounded.

I am really sorry about your neighbor. That must be difficult to deal with right now for you.

I've had an experience that is similar to yours - my world was just starting to get better and then I found out some really bad news. This was around 2 years ago.

Anyway, I don't know if you're comfortable doing so, but if you need the extra help and support from your therapist, maybe it is the right thing to do to reach out to her. You don't need to go through this alone.

I'm so sorry about your neighbor. If it were me, I'd reach out to my therapist, maybe see if I could get an appointment this week instead of having to wait that long.

Thank you, I am writing her a letter as it's allot better then me leaving her a voice message that is long. I feel good reaching out when i need to. It's not like me to reach out for the fear of feeling dependent on her too much. It's better to reach out then to really feel like I need to go back to hospital.

I left her a voice message that she will get tomorrow. I think that was better then a letter that way it tells her that im reaching out rather then just writing. I get very anxious on the phone but i did okay leaving her a message.

I hope you hear back from her tomorrow, Cheryl.

I'm glad you decided to contact T, Cheryl.

This is a rough time you are going through and you could do with additional support. I hope T gets back to you soon. In the meantime, hang in there..

She is good about getting back to me and making the time to talk with me over the phone. I hope she gets back to me tomorrow if not on Tuesday.

Thank you I feel better writing on here it really helps to know im not alone and that it's okay to reach out for additional help. I find it's getting easier to reach out now then it was with my ex-t he would never call me back unless it was to reschedual sessions. I often felt like a burden to him. My new t is great at getting back to me with in a day or two depending how busy she is.

I'm sorry about your neighbor's death. Loss is just so, so harsh.

I'm glad you reached out. March 12th is a long time away.

My therapist got back to me this morning when she got the message. It helped to talk about the loss of my friend. She really thanked me for leaving her a voice message that showed her that I am using my supports when I need to. She also gave me some ideas on how to stay present between now and when I see her on March 12. I really am so grateful to have her in my life.

I'm so glad T got back to you and that it was helpful talking to her.

I'm so sorry for your loss and I really do feel for you ❤️ I'm glad you've reached out and I truly hope that you'll find some coping skills that give you some comfort in your grief.
Hugs Cheryl! ❤️

I'm glad T got back to you and that you have this source of support to call on, if you need her.