Couch 226--CCXXVI Couch

In the US system it is the instructor that drones on.

You need to start paying more attention to your moustaches.

I've been so fortunate to be teaching in person. I asked for it because I knew I would completely suck as a virtual teacher. Even in person it is not "normal." I have to keep students in rows rather than pods which is completely not my style of teaching, but I've found ways to continue to have students interact with each other. I have always had a problem learning names - I swear I sort of have that facial blindness thing. And with everyone in masks learning names has been even more of a struggle this year. I'm definitely hoping for more flexibility next year - we'll see how things transpire.

I am thinking I will grow the kind with the swirly ends and hide it under my mask.

You’ve done nothing to be sorry for. I know it’s so hard, but you’ve got to try to give yourself some love and grace.

I am trying this jar thing with honey in it to help get rid of the carpenter bees eating my fence. I hope the squirrels don't figure it out and break the glass

Our school hasn't said if they are going to make vaccinations required for students or if not. I went all virtual instead of hybrid to avoid masks. I keep thinking/hoping that by the fall, masks will no longer be a thing. My summer class will be zoom - I think all of them are going to be this summer.

Artie, I'm not sure why you feel you need to be sorry. I for one don't feel like I need an apology from you. You've had a rough week since your session. You've been talking about it. Isn't that what this forum is for? HUGS Kit

I hope today is a better day than yesterday. Yesterday someone quit, just walked out in the middle of the day and was like, I'm done. This leaves us in a seriously bad position as his position is not one that is easily filled. It's sort of technical and specialized. You can't just hire just anyone off the street. I'm hopeful he will change his mind in a couple of days and come back but I don't know. I know he has a temper and I know he was struggling to control it yesterday.


Then the Exporting system wouldn't work so I couldn't get an ITN number which is needed when you ship stuff out of the country. Luckily it worked today. I emailed the help desk of the census bureau and they told me what to look for that might be wrong with my form and sure enough, that's where the issue was.


I was in a really bad mood yesterday when I went home. I still feel like I'm in a bad mood. I don't want to put up with myself. Tomorrow it is payroll day at work and that is always stressful until it is done. I'm just feeling all stressed out and moody for some reasons. Plus my sister's stuff. At least my niece is keeping in touch with me so I know how things are basically going. My sister isn't doing much talking to us but she is doing lots of talking with her Pastor and deacon so I suppose she is talked out.


I don't really want to see T on Saturday. Probably need to, just don't want to. Just want to curl up and sleep the day away.

Sorry you're dealing with a lot at work

Do you generally find T helpful. When's your upcoming appointment with the other T again?

I was going to type the same thing. There's nothing to be sorry for Art.

I emailed new T asking if he had any cancellations for the rest of this week. He replied back super quick saying he had something free for monday, but It's two days before my exam. I have done a session before an exam that really left me dissociated afterwards so I don't want to risk it.

The reply back is actually all I needed.

We were talking about needs, before but how do you actually meet some of them yourself?

I need to be seen.
I need to heard.
Touch & care = I used to get by going to the massage place. but that's been closed for almost a year now.

Psychics and crime

Thanks Lemoncake!

I'm dealing with a lot at work and a lot in my personal life and with relationships with others (friends). I'm exhausted and overwhelmed.


I find talking to T nice and soothing but not necessarily helpful. My appointment with Dr. K (new guy) is April 26th too far away to actually be of any use.

Had a difficult interaction with the BF this morning. Emailed T about the sh***y thing he said to me on Monday (I put it in "Dear T" if anyone's interested). I have class this evening (via Zoom) and I want to skip it.

I feel really really bad, y'all.

hugs @chihirochild

"Do you get to be annoyed at me for having the very problem for which I’ve come to you for help? Do you get to tell me that there is a right and wrong way to engage with therapy, and that I’m doing it wrong?"

Do you honestly think you would you get annoyed at a patient coming with a cardiac issue? Maybe you've gone as far as you can with this T.

Hi Lemoncake,

I've been thinking about the needs and how you could take care of some of them yourself. I don't know if you do affirmations but you could look in the mirror (be seen) and say your affirmations out loud (be heard). For the touch ones, you could use anointing oil (you can get it on Amazon) or nice lotions and just get a nice shower or bath and then use the soothing lotion or oil on your skin. I don't know if that helps. Just some ideas. I struggle with some of the same things btw!

If you don't find it helpful you don't have to go. Maybe you could try to email around and see if there's anyone else who could see you sooner?

Thank youuuu. The mirror stuff is also what Louise Hay recommend in the book "you can heal your life". I did actually start doing it but like always stopped. Might sound woo but a lot of my self hatred has actually vanished because I just tell myself "it's a thought and thoughts can be changed" .

I also found an older Lush massage bar which I forgot I had.

I talked to my Mom on my lunch break. She said, "Stay Stable." I think that should be my new mantra.

This is a really good comparison, about getting annoyed with a patient needing cardiac care. And then being annoyed if they had to come in for a follow-up.

Hugs, Chihiro. I'm glad you sent the email.

*curls up in a ball, whimpers*

Today has been Hard, and not necessarily in the way I expected. I had plans to combat these feelings, and then they charged.


I also received an email about a prospective work opportunity, but the meeting would be half an hour after my scheduled appointment time with R, which wouldn't leave me much time to decompress before having to compose myself.

If she has availability, there is nothing wrong with asking to bring the session forward, is there?

HUGS @LostOnTheTrail

Oh geez, my boss is talking to one of the employees in a common area. It's like, there are offices for a reason, use one of them!

Absolutely nothing wrong with asking to move the session, Lost. Depending on how you feel and your stability level, and how exciting you find this prospective opportunity, it could also be okay to skip the therapist appointment just this one time. YMMV, of course. Therapy is there to help us function better in life, not to replace life.

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