[MuddyBoots]

I don't know really how to get over this. I was just in the hospital for a month and one of the counselors was super nice to me, bought me packaged food when I was paranoid of what the hospital was giving me, and overall was just awesome. She said she'd do a "toe tap" before I got discharged, but she didn't (I was napping) and I cried because I didn't get to say goodbye. She was like the mom I always wanted but didn't get when I was younger. I really think I love this counselor like most people would love their mom (my mom's alright now but she was sick when I was little and couldn't take care of my properly) I miss her terribly, especially since I'm having trouble adapting to regular life and trying to process my latest psychosis. She said she goes to a park and I want to go there every day just to find her and finally get my toe tap and see her again but I don't want to be stalkerish. I don't want to be hospitalized again so I really shouldn't see her but how do I stop missing her?

[Lonelyinmyheart]

I completely understand. When the longing for a mother is so intense it's easy and natural to attach to someone who shows you care and attention. It's a pattern I've had all my life with different women - they were all very different people in very different circumstances - but it was always someone who showed me care and attention and the warmth I desperately craved because I didn't have it as a child. I kept going back places just to try and catch a glimpse of the person I was attached to. I'm so sorry that you missed the opportunity to say goodbye to the counselor, that's just so painful and missing someone is really hard at the best of times I don't know how old you are or your personal circumstances, but would seeing a counselor or therapist for weekly sessions be an option? There you can try and work through the pain and loss you're feeling and look at why you this way and maybe start to manage it. Obviously getting hospitalised just to see her isn't ideal although I do understand the temptation. Your feelings are less about this lovely lady and much more about the pain inside you, so taking care of you and finding the support from somewhere is important. Take care.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Sapien

How do I stop missing her?

I don't think there is any way you can stop missing her. All you can do is get used to her absence. It's a grieving process.