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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#761
Thanks, LT.
I feel blindsided by this, even though I know it can't be helped. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#762
hugs, Lost.
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Writing my way through...
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#763
I'm back from the dreaded dentist appt, H said it took a lot longer than he was expecting it to. Apparently this dentist I go to is very thorough compared to where H goes. I was extra glad he came with me though, as after the dentist started he found that i had a cavity under the gum line in the same tooth. so he had to take care of that too. I had to raise my hand one time and ask for more novocaine or whatever they use. So the entire right side of my face is numb - number now than it was when he was working in there haha. I'm glad that's over with. I go back in 2 weeks for the permanent crown.
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#764
I'm sorry you're going through this, Artie.
I hope the next appointment fixes the issue for you, and that the numbness and pain don't hang around too long. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
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#765
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Hugs, Artie. Sorry about there also being a cavity. I hope you aren't in pain when the numbness wears off. And I guess it's good you didn't keep the appointment for before you were seeing L! |
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ArtieTheSequal, SlumberKitty
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#766
Being unemployed is horrible. The amount of panic attacks I’ve had this week is ridiculous. I spent all morning yesterday to fill out the umeployment stuff online. I literally tried TEN times before I gave up. Then I go to their offices and even though i told them i was having problems online, i had to try it again while someone looked on. A minute later when an error pop up. So they bring me to a phone with lots of fun instructions to go through. This time I waited 6 times until I gave up. Each time I told her what happened: At some point during the call, the very cheery automated voice would say: Thank you. Goodbye. And hang up. This happened at any point in all of this. Each time it happened, I would bring this person over and tell her what happened. She always looked vaguely confused and eventually gives me a piece of paper with said instructions to try at home. SERIOUSLY?!
Many panic attacks that day. Today I did the insurance form online. Good thing my dad was available, because of left by my own choices, I would not even be qualified. I still sobbed after, because there is still so much to do. Rent is due in 5 days, and until yesterday when some friends who pitched in, I can afford my rent for may. But WOULD I make it through may with all my bills. If I calculated correctly. it is a little over $200. Cue: Panic Attack. I can’t do anymore today. Both of my therapists were close to calling 911 on me, but I was safe for the night. I feel so far over my head on this. Not to mention I don’t know what my T’s are going to do. I don’t know how longs this takes. And it is crucial bc I have a very important doctor appt on the 8th |
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Always in This Twilight
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#767
Hugs, Velcro. I'm so sorry that the technical issues are making your struggles even more difficult. I'm glad your dad was able to help with the insurance form. Is he able to help you with money at all, even if it's in the form of a loan you'll have to pay back?
Also if you're concerned about being able to afford your therapy, I'd ask your T's about a temporary fee decrease if it's not covered by your insurance. My T told me that he had a client that he charged only $5 a session for a bit when he was struggling financially. So they'll often make accommodations for a client who's having trouble paying. |
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#768
Thanks LT-
It has gotten much worse. I found out that takes up to 45 days to make. decision, so i don’t see that’s going to help seeing my doctor on the 8th. Or any more I need. What really will be have an accomplish in a month so i can pay rent, bills, taking care of my cats, and whatever may happen. It won’t be enough. I will have to move back to NY to live with my dad. He’s awesome, so it’s not that. How on earth will my cats deal with all of this? The moving in and out to pack up, the really long 8.5 drive, somehow how to deal with a small dog who only loves my dad. They’ll have to stay in a small room w me for a few/however many days until we can try to introduce them. My one cat absolutely needs her own space from the other two. Where would she go? I am so so beyond devastated |
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Writing my way through...
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Location: In the desert
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#769
hugs velcro. i'm so sorry all of this is happening.
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#770
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I can't say I know exactly how you feel because I have never been in your exact situation but I know the fear that I would feel if it happened to me. I also know from my own experience how even when things feel like they couldn't get any worse, sometimes things happen for a reason and bad things turn into blessings. I live alone with no family to rely on. 5 years ago I was in a very bad car accident with a broken neck among other things. It was discovered during the scans for the accident that I had a spot on my lung. This was not serious at the time but something that needed to be monitored with yearly scans. A couple years later I was diagnosed with colon cancer. I'm thinking can things get any worse. They saw the spot on my lung and thought the cancer had spread which would have pushed me to stage 3, but the good news came from the accident. Because they had previous scans, they realized the spot was not growing and was not from the cancer which put me down to stage 2 and drastically changed my treatment plan and survival rate. I guess what I am saying is if someone would have told me at the time of the accident that it would actually be a blessing down the road, I would have said they were crazy. It certainly won't be easy but try to keep the faith and continue to look forward. |
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Child of a lesser god
Member Since Jun 2015
Location: Tartarus
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#771
I saw this in today’s New York Times and thought it might speak to some of you:
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__________________ The secret to eternal youth is arrested development.—Alice Roosevelt Longworth |
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Tweaky Dog
Member Since Aug 2011
Location: England
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#772
Thanks, @@.
I am one of those people. Today's going to have to be a slow day over here. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#773
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It seems like there are "acceptable" negative feelings (especially the kind where we judge ourselves and beat up ourselves) which we encourage people to feel and accept in order that they don't get repressed and start to rot in ourselves. But then there are those distasteful negative feelings which it doesn't seem so acceptable to encourage. For example, I feel a considerable amount of hostility, disgust and judgement towards others. Feeling positive or even neutral about that way of feeling doesn't naturally seem like something to encourage - for myself or for society generally. I see it as a problem which I am trying to regulate. How does this fit? That my feelings of disgust etc are cover feelings and that the underlying feelings (such as fear or vulnerability) are the ones to accept? But then I am accepting some feelings but not others. Or is regulation a kind of neutrality? Rhetorical questions in part, but I find these kinds of things confusing and how to navigate the concepts (nevermind the feelings) doesn't seem obvious to me. |
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Always in This Twilight
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Location: US
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#774
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Hugs. I'm so sorry. Is the decision about the insurance (or Medicaid?) or your unemployment? If it takes up to 45 days, maybe it will be sooner? And it may be effective as of the day you applied, so you'd get benefits going back to then (I know that's how disability works, from my aunt's experience). Is there anyone you can borrow some money from until the decision comes through? Or could you put things on your or someone else's (like your dad) credit card? And I'd still plan to see your doctor--you may be able to negotiate a reduced rate for the appointment if you're uninsured. Or if it's a case where you're waiting for a decision, it would probably cover back to when you applied (if that makes sense). And can you possibly talk to your landlord, see if rent can be at all deferred for a month or two? Assuming you've been living there for some time. You can get through this. Your cats can get through this. I'm very sorry you have to deal with it. ETA: Also, could you find some sort of temporary job you could do from home on your own time? Like contract work? There are so many places offering remote work since the pandemic. The site FlexJobs is all remote work, for example. ETA part 2: I know I'm offering practical advice when you may not be ready for that. If this was going on for me, I'm sure I'm have a very similar reaction to you, feeling stuck and hopeless. So I very much empathize. |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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Location: CA
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#775
HUGS Lost
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#776
HUGS Velcro
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#777
Therapy appointment in 1.5 hours.
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#778
Well I went to my Therapy office but apparently my Therapist wasn't there today.
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#779
My therapy appointment was good today. But I hope she starts having some suggestions soon. Well I guess she had one. When I feel like the TV is watching me (psychosis) turn it off. I still think it could watch me but she says it has to have a power source. So that means it's possible, right?
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Writing my way through...
Member Since Feb 2020
Location: In the desert
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#780
I'm not exactly sure what possessed me during my session today, but I gave L the link to my poetry blog after wondering out loud if I was brave enough to do so. Maybe she'll only make a cursory glance at it and not even get to the handful of poems from last year that came out of me processing stopping our work together the previous December. I didn't tell her which ones they were, of course.
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