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Tweaky Dog
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#361
So sorry you're dealing with this, NP.
Did P give any more context as to what contact might look like while he's away? __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
Grand Magnate
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Location: the upside down
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#362
We have some prearranged days to do a video session, he's going to send me the occasional picture from his trip as a way to maintain connection, and he's fine if I email him. He's going to send me a pic from the Dolomites on my birthday Friday, so that'll probably be the first bit of contact. I really appreciate that he's going to stay in contact with me. I think a lot of my anxiety is fear that the relationship is just going to disintegrate, I won't be able to hold on to our connection and he'll change his mind about working with me. Not very logical, I know. Also just loneliness. Luckily he doesn't actually seem phased by my attachment to him. I'm also babysitting his plant (that I gave to him) while he's away.
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Always in This Twilight
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#363
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Always in This Twilight
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#364
Today was a heavy session. When I left, Dr. T even said, "That was an intense meeting!"
We talked about a lot of important stuff though. Some tied to the pandemic and my reaction to things like seeing his dog, why I want to know more about him, how I feel inferior to him (and like we were on more level playing field earlier in the pandemic, in part because he couldn't play his sport), how I feel I'm not accomplishing enough in life, my writing, plus some related stuff about ex-MC's wife dying and my reaction to that, etc. It was a LOT. But I think it was productive. And he seemed very open to talking about attachment and related things. He even said part of why he's encouraging me to do more writing is so that I can explore my feelings around some of those things and we can then discuss them in sessions. Just feeling a bit of a therapy hangover now. What's funny is that I went into the session unsure of what I wanted to talk about, thinking I might share my latest writing (I didn't, but we talked about some of what it was about). Though sometimes, I think those end up being the most productive sessions, when I'm unsure what I want to address. Where I'm more open to going in whatever direction things go. |
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Writing my way through...
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#365
hugs, LT. that does sound like an intense session. I'm glad he was open to talking about the attachment stuff.
you sound like me with the writing we've both been doing lately - for me it has opened up some stuff, or maybe has shaken loose my feelings about some stuff - that's made my sessions kinda intense lately too. the poetry course i started yesterday is no exception; I've already written one poem that brought to light something I hadn't realized until I wrote the poem - the reason why i didn't want to do something L suggested last week. |
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Writing my way through...
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#366
I wrote a poem recently that's about being a recovering codependent. I saw on the coda.org website their call for submissions for recovery stories/poems etc so I took a deep breath and submitted my poem for consideration. We'll see what happens.
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Elder
Member Since Oct 2008
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#367
i am back!! very mixed feelings. my therapist got the director before i left today. that is not normal. and turns out it wasn’t.
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Child of a lesser god
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Location: Tartarus
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#368
Dug my COVID masks out today in honor of the (incredibly bad) air quality today.
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Always in This Twilight
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#369
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Ours is getting bad, too--it's supposed to be worse tomorrow, the way the wind is blowing from Canada. Last week, I was wearing masks in my house, to (apparently successfully) keep H and D from getting COVID from me. Now, I'll be wearing them outside to not breathe in smoke. |
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Always in This Twilight
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#370
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Hugs, Velcro. I understand the fear of losing a safety net. Is there any sort of step-down program, like partial hospitalization (PHP), that they can offer you as additional support? Or could you see your T any extra times or at least email or call her for support in the meantime? I know money is a concern, but at least to get you through the transition from being there to being back home? And please post here as much as you want if it helps. |
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Always in This Twilight
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#371
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And I hope your poem that you mentioned in the other post gets accepted! |
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Always in This Twilight
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#372
Hm, it occurs to me that I could use some of what I talked about with Dr. T today to finish out my assignment that I'm aiming to turn in this week. I felt like the part I was writing about just sort of ended, and I wasn't sure where to go with it. Perhaps this is where I could go.
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Poohbah
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#373
Well I posted yesterday that a full-time job opened up. This morning, I was perusing my company's website (they own a bunch of retirement communities) for career openings when I saw a new one, that would be a step up from the full-time job I already mentioned, at one our sister retirement communities. It would be a further drive but I would receive a $25,000 raise! I texted my boss about the new position I found and that I was interested in that one as well. He told me to definitely apply for it.
I'll be happy if either one of these comes to fruition! |
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Tweaky Dog
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#374
That's excellent news, Polibeth! I hope one of them pans out for you.
__________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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Grand Poohbah
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#375
I'm looking at places to rent for when I move out. It's like being in a candy shop for the first time as a kid. I'm still watching my budget at the moment, but even then, there's so many nice cozy places that I could have never gotten with my partner since he'd have complaints. Makes me feel less bad about moving out of a place we literally built together... will probably still miss some stuff, but if I can at least plant some veggies and have a place to sit outside in a garden, that sounds great!
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#376
Hi everyone! I am still alive. I have just been going through a deep dark depression. Thought I would pop my head in today and say hello and that I have missed you all. New T is good but she is a stickler about the 45 minute thing. She finally put me on a regular schedule though which is good because I got really hurt when she gave the session time away that I had had for several weeks. Making headway I guess. Dr put me on Auvelity. It is a medicine for depression so now I am on three antidepressants. I told T yesterday I was sad. I didn't elaborate. Auvelity is super expensive (over $200 for a month's worth with my insurance) but I found a manufacturer's saving coupon online so it is only costing me $10 a month. Much better. Lots going on. Lots going on in my head. I will try to pop in again soon. Hugs to anyone who wants one. Kit
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Always in This Twilight
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#377
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Hugs, Kit, I'm sorry you're struggling so much. I hope the new medication is helpful. And I'm glad you have a regular time with your T now. |
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Writing my way through...
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#378
Hugs, Kit.
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Wise Elder
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#379
H just lost his job.
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Always in This Twilight
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#380
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