Couch 252: Kitties and Hawks

I’m sorry, NP.

Relationships are hard because you can’t be in each other’s brains. And then it’s amplified when there is an imbalance. Therapeutic relationships are imbalanced. I get why they have to be and it’s not fair. It’s painful.

I don’t know what will happen for me when L retires. A few occasions she hinted towards basically cutting me off. A few other times she said she didn’t know.

Hugs, NP. I agree with Scarlet that a confirmation email could be worth sending, especially if you're already assuming it's over. Even just to say, "Hey, haven't heard back from you so hoping you're dong OK' or something like that. It's possible he was on a long vacation or has something going on in his life that's distracting him that has zero to do with you. I can't imagine after your relationship that he'd just put you completely out of his mind. So I say a brief followup, even, "Just making sure you got this" while forwarding the email could be worth it. I suspect he'd write back.

Hi Couch,

I hope today is being as gentle as possible with you.
Tomorrow is World Suicide Prevention Day, and Steve's advocacy work is the only reason I'm aware.

It's hard to believe that this is the fifth round of September milestones.
I don't know what I'm going to do to acknowledge the day, as the weather is not conducive to visiting either of my trees.

Until this afternoon, I thought I would be spending my allotted time with one of my favourite caregivers, who I haven't seen properly for ages. For some ridiculous (unspecified) reason, there was a last minute change, and now that's not happening.

I'll still have support, but it's pretty much only in the physical sense.
It's hard to talk about these things and not feel heard.

I don't know what I'm going to need from my session on Thursday at the moment, either.

Today's redeeming feature was the release of Liz Gilbert's new book. I'm trying to savour the audiobook, and the ebook is next in line after I've finished Kelsey Grammer's book.

Grammer's book is not an easy read, but it's proving to be good medicine for me.

Hugs to you, Lost.

Pocket riders for my medical oncology appointment tomorrow morning welcome (haven't seen anyone use that term in a while). Nervous about what she'll say/recommend. And/or for a surgical oncology appointment Monday morning.

Definitely, LT.

Thinking of you. I hope it goes well.

Thanks, NP and Scarlet!