i might delete my account.

ive been coming to this site for awhile now. and i love reading everyone's posts about their T's, cause i can relate so much. I make posts here and there, esp. when i'm on a downslide with my T, because she is my only means of support and when she can't be there i usually turn to PC. but lately i feel i'm kinda a bother, and i haven't gotten much support. I know everyone is going through their own stuff, and i'm not saying i'm perfect with being supportive either, but it seems i've gotten less and less responses to my recent posts. I feel maybe i should take a break, but at the same time reading posts is comforting to me. but then i feel the need to respond, and then post myself, and then feel stupid when no one replies.

im not sure what i'm going to do, but if i do decide to take a break, i wish you all well. and thank you for the support that i did receive. It seems to be a pattern with me...

it's never enough.

i'm working in a workbook right now with that exact topic - never enough. it's the borderline personality workbook. I don't have that dx (yet - give it time, i can add it to the other 6), but it was reccommended to me. it's an interesting thing and deals with how the though patterns developed and what holds them in place.

regarding your decision - i would suggest stick around and give it time... things go in highs and lows. and you're important, too. I sometimes hesitate to answer back to things because it often feels like my post kills the thread. then when i do answer, someone will respond like a week or two later (after I've forgotten what my initial "crisis" was). I think that is part of what being in here is learning - that we have to deal with our own crisises and not live in the "fix it now" ideals that our generation is currently in. This takes some getting used to. I, for example, have come a long way - i used to never be able to post in such boards - it *had* to be chat because it *had* to be NOW. But, since my computer won't let me, i have had to learn to take time and breathe, and know that this too will pass.
Hope you stay, KB!
Kiya

Hi there! I am new to this particular part of the forums.

I just wanted to say I get what you are saying. Im glad you decided to let us know, so that we could try and reach out to you. Thats good that you assert that need.

I would say if you decide to give it a break, just take a break. Come back later and reevaluate, but I wouldn't delete your account just yet.

(((hugs)))

I hope you stay! ((((((((( krazibean )))))))))))

I totally understand those feelings. I feel that way too. Not just here but on a different type of board I used to frequent. I have to remind myself that its not me and that it probably seems that way when I'm on the downside of life. I hope you can feel more supported

Krazibean,
I hope you stay! I know it is difficult when you don't receive many replies It fluctuates, though. Some days are better than others, some topics attract more people. A good thing to do would be to start replying to other posts. You can at first pick a few names that interest you and try to always reply. Then you can add people when you get the hang of it. It's human nature working here - you get what you give. If you take the time to reply to other's posts, in time, they will more than likely reply to yours I hope you stay

krazi.. i dont have much to offer anyone right now.. i seriously dont. im on the verge of giving up pC AND therapy. Therapy is causing me a lot more complication in life.. and here at pc i get to feed my insecurities and obsessions about therapy.

if you get something from it of value, keep it.. think of it like fishing, somedays you catch a lot and others not so much.. but you dont think you're a bother to the fish! as long as it helps you in your process then stay... i hope you do.

that said.. if i walk away... which i have been slowly doing lately.. posting less and less.. i wish you well too my dear

Hi Krazibean,
Try not to take it personally. I have posted numerous times that I feel like I'm a "thread killer." When I'm feeling a bit more sensitive than usual, I do take it personally and then make myself feel bad about it. It's really quite silly of me to do that to myself. People are people and sometimes are more talkative than others.

I, for one, hope you stick around.
Best,
Okie

Hey Krazi,

Why would you punish yourself for something that you perceive others are doing?

I know for me, I go through times when I can post a lot, respond a lot, etc., I used to feel like I had to respond to everyone's posts in this forum. Then I realized that I couldn't and--in fact--some of the stuff was interfering with my therapy, so I have to be selective as to when and how.

Can you think of us as invisible support and know that when you don't get the response you need, we are reading like you do?

(((((Krazibean)))))

take care.

I'm pretty new here and I wonder sometimes about lack of responses to my posts. I may get one or two over a course of a few days.

Well, in my case, I tend to post some pretty triggering things, and that makes it hard for a lot of people to respond. And, when I notice a high number of "views" but a low number of "responses," that tells me that people are reading it. A lot of times they simply don't know what to say.

I hope you'll stay here for a while and see what happens, Krazibean. I will.

Hi,I am new here.But I want to stay here.Why,because I can get to know people who have gone through the same things I am going through. I am reading a lot of posts,trying to learn some new things.I can not answer too much now,but with experience I believe and hope I will be able to help others.
At least I can come here and share my feelings.I feel at home here, that makes me feel better.

Hi Krazi, I hope you do whatever is best for you. But I will say yours are some of my favorite posts, b/c often I can really relate to what you're describing, so I would definitely miss them if you stopped. I'm more of a lurker than a poster, but that's just because I'm often confused enough about my own stuff that I don't feel like I have a lot of wisdom to add to other people's posts. Take care.

Krizabean, Hope you decide to stick around...I've not been up to replying to many posts lately...I read but then seem to have no words...

LovebirdsFlying is right, sometimes people just don't know what to say. But it doesn't mean we don't care Krazibean.

i hope you'll stay. i would miss you.

Kbean! please stick around I like your posts.

I don't know you, but I hope you stick around because I like your picture (is it a rock of some sort?)

PS: I feel like no-one answers mine either and I almost stopped because I was like "this is an old-farts club, and doesn't let any new blood in..." but maybe we can respond to each other's posts!

Krazibean, I too hope you stay. I don't post much myself. I often think I am no good at support. I also feel like I'm a thread-killer sometimes, as Okey said. I will try and participate more from now on.

Krazibean I understand what you are saying it isn't that anyone is ignoring you I'm sure. I don't get many replies either but I don't post as often as I used to.

I have a hard time keeping up with message boards. I have a child who is now having seizures and life is crazy.

I love reading your posts. I read more than I respond to because almost as soon as I read them something happens and I need to log off.

I will agree with you about obsessing more about therapy and how this website can feed that. I had to take a break for awhile because I kept comparing my T to some of the T stories shared on here. It was affecting our relationship so I needed to back off.

That was my issue though, I love this board and read when I can or when my mind is feeling okay to do so. I've come to realize that all of our T's are different. Just like as clients we are all different.

I hope you stay!

Hey everyone, thank you so much i was actually surprised i got as many replies as i did. I think i'll stay around a little longer because i really do like reading people's posts and when i write my own it helps me process things, and it's even better when i get feedback. I didn't know so many of you read my posts and enjoyed them, i just figured from the low comment numbers that my posts were annoying or whatever.

thank you all again so much, it really means a lot to me.
((((PC))))