Does your T have other patients? Hahahaha

yeah blue - kinda like Freud... he lost all his patients too and for a while HE was his only patient.

as for me... i feel both useless and worthless so i really don't like taking up space or feel like i am wasting t's time. i feel extra guilty that my MD made her take me!! She already had a full schedule and now she has to spend an extra hour for *me*. *gasp*. so i lurk in the shadows when her other patients are around (i've only seen one male male couple a few times - they seem really sweet with each other - oh and one blonde one night who was trying to stop crying). i try not to take up space in the waiting room chairs or her couch - try to make myself as small as possible. Try to get out of therapy and have her give my time to someone else. Each time she either ignores the comment or changes the focus.

Kiya, have you and T talked about separateness?

Your T has her own mind and makes her own decisions about taking on patients. She could have declined taking another patient, but she didn't. You can accept that she made the decision willingly because she has a separate mind from everyone else; help you and trust that is there for you because she wants to be there.

echoes... no t actually told me that. we were talking about how MD is all nice and everything yet her orders are very strict... even if the word "please" is in there we both know it is not a request. T said she had had no openings "but [MD] said you absolutely need to be working with me. See, even I do what [MD] tells me too!!"

My T made up hours at such odd days and times and would rush or be late and obviously coming from home sometimes near the end, that I think toward the end, before she retired, I literally was one of her last clients.

I usually only thought of other clients or saw them when she was working in a clinic session, not a private one. And there were just oddities; she'd be waiting for me or napping and almost always answered her phone, had classes during my time so finally changed the day (I don't think she would have done it that way if there had been lots of clients that day?) etc. so I don't think she had many clients or something.

My T has other patients. I have seen them in the waiting area.

At first my little one really struggled with this. He is completely serious about being my T's one and only favorite patient. My T encourages it with him!

Over time though he has really grown saying "I really love T and she is so wonderful I'm glad she helps more than just us, as long as I remain her favorite"

When I first started seeing my T I hated that she had other patients. A few months ago my T started me in a group session with some of her other patients and I now accept that she sees other people. Of course I am her favorite LOL