[embarassed]

As some of you might know, I have a major obsession with my pdoc. I'm really curious about him and I've learned a lot of personal details about his life, etc. Here's another weird thing. I also wonder what he's like when he's having sex. I often picture him having sex with his wife and wondering what he looks like when he's doing it. I also wonder what he looks like when he's naked and what kind of noises he makes. This is nuts but I'm too embarassed to talk to anyone about this. This is even weirder than driving by his house or looking up his family members on myspace and downloading pictures of his kids!

I don't actually want to have sex with him. It's more like wanting to watch him do it. Why do I want to watch him do it? Why do I wonder what he looks like naked? Perhaps it's because I'm curious about his personal life because he's a professional who has a lot of power over me? Maybe people seem more vulnerable and human when they're naked? I see him as a father figure type and he seems superhuman to me. So maybe picturing him naked, panting, moaning and having sex makes him seem more human to me.

WTF! This is crazy! Any thoughts?

[Slippers]

I don't think it's wierd. I think it's just your mind trying to feel closer to him. Maybe part of you just wants to be closer, more intimate?

And, heck - humans are just curious by nature.

Slippers

[Onion]

I'm sure this isn't unusual. For me, I think it comes from wondering about my T as a vulnerable human being who isn't always in that professional role, always with the right things to say. And also that I'm madly in love with her, lol.

lol. i think about my pdoc naked and having sex. but i never really wondered what noises he might make. i guess i'm used to guys not really making noise. i mean the breathing alters, sure, but not really making noise... but now you got me wondering bout that lol.

yeah... for me i guess it is about picturing him being on an equal footing with someone. two human beings who are equal... i think that when i think about having sex with him is is partly about that... and partly about role reveral too, i think. but i guess i do wonder about him having sex with his wife, too. curious... i think he would be a nice person to be intimate with. sigh.

he has very sexy hands. blush.

You mention this is your pdoc-- I was wondering if you have a T and if the T is male, do you have similar thoughts/feelings?

[embarassed]

Aww. You people are so understanding and non-judgemental. Yeah, I think the human vulnerability is my main reason for wanting to see him have sex. I want to see him outside of the professional and superhuman role. And my pdoc has nice hands too. Big and strong. I wonder if he notices me staring at them.

Pinksoil, are you asking me or alex k?

[Brian37]

well having actually told my T I wanted to have sex with her, I guess just thinking about it isnt out of the norm.....