saw T....may trigger>talk of SI

Saw T today and finally opened up and was 100% honest about about SI. She wasn't aware that it was occuring. I told her about how much my SI has changed since it started. I used to average at most anywhere from 25-80 marks a night. Now if I give in, I leave maybe 5-7 at most....not even 2 a month usually.

She looked through my file and saw my no suicide contract. ASked if it was a suicidal action. I said no.....well, duh. Its a survival action anyway. After story time, she asked when that last time was. I admitted it was last night.

I was asked to write and sign a no Self harm contract, which I did.....with much discomfort.

I was so proud of myself for FINALLY being 100% honest about it on my own accord and how much better I am doing, compared to when I started SI. I texted my best friend's g/f to tell her how well I'd done. She said she didn't wanna hear about. It was for attention and I should get help like shed already said.


Weeeeeelll I am getting help and I don't need her approval. Gah. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be 'ok'...especially in the eyes of others.

(((((((((((Hallie)))))))) You SHOULD be proud of yourself. You're doing really well! But you certainly don't need "friends" like that. Try to ignore her ignorant comments and focus on what you know is true and what you're doing right.

Way to go Hallie. I am proud of you.

((((((((((((( Hallie ))))))))))))))

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