[jbug]

Today was a hard day in therapy I had to talk about "it" that painful part of my past. I didn't want to but it just kind of came tumbling out of my mouth. I hate when that happens. It came out when talking about my day with my dad yesterday. I was telling her about how proud I was about being able to get myself out of my panic attack and then just kind of ended up talking about "it". I am now not doing so hot. I don't know what to do. I'm dwelling on it and can't seem to get it from my mind. I am going to try to take a nap and maybe when I get up it will be gone.

Jbug

[skeksi]

It takes courage to speak about the most difficult things in T, jbug . So good on you for being brave enough to do so. I hate the way stuff tends to "hang around" after bringing them up in T, but perhaps that is the best way to get them out into the open so we can manage them.

I hope you are feeling better.

[Christina86]

((((((Jbug))))))))))

I'm here if you need to talk at all, ok? Also, you could try to contact your T and say you're not doing so well right now?

[chaotic13]

(((Jbug)))
I remember when after denying my "it" during several early sessions, I was hard pressed by my T and I finally admitted "it". I walked out to my car and started dry heaving in the parking lot. What I hated most at the time was that I felt like my T was there to help stir up all this crap but then I was totally alone to cope with it. My T was on vacation for the next 3 weeks.

The fallout totally...sucks... for lack of a better word. Just know that it does get better.

Take care and take it day by day.