have you every... pinned your T down.. for...

odds of being able to say work again... or.. for having.. outside social contact... or recovery from something like DID.. that recovery is possible.. if you "count"... recovery as being integrated.. which I for one do not count... as "recovery"..

and.. if you kept at it until he answered... and it was extremely... extremely negative..

How would you process.. that information???

You might have guessed.. I did pin my T down... and actually my body work T.. also... and.. now.. I am trying to live with the consequences..

any one know how to help me????

is it... acceptance.... do I have to learn acceptance????

fighting.. what I know to be true.. doesn't seem very good use of my energy..

but acceptance brings... waves and waves of depression...

When I heard my T say that a lot of this stuff would probably never go away, I was very disappointed. It helps me, though, to have a clearer picture of what I can expect. And it changed some of my therpay goals, because I stopped wanting to be different in so many ways and instead wanted to work on accepting how I am now. Still, there are many days when I just feel hopeless and frustrated.

It must have been hard to hear. It sounds like you feel like you've lost hope. Is it possible for acceptance to bring peaceful waves, not crushing waves of depression?

I guess I don't equate recovery to being integrated. I think those with DID need not completely integrate to be happy, functional, etc.

If I got too much negativity from my T, I would seek out other sources.

I have a book I like about women with DID who lead successful and fulfilling lives, unintegrated. Maybe this book would offer some hope or inspiration for you. This is the book:
I Am More Than One -- How Women with Dissociative Identity Disorder Have Found Success in Life and Work

Maybe you and your T could read this book together and have "book club."

(((freewill)))
My T is direct and well not all that warm and fuzzy but I can honestly say that I don't recall her giving me the impression that my condition was hopeless or unchangeable. At one point I do recall he saying something like, 'no amount of therapy will ever help with your feelings of being victimized.' The next session she was able to clarify what she meant, but I remember how devastated I felt thinking I was hopeless for a few weeks.

As for acceptance... just we've talk about that a few times, not fun.

Freewill I hope you continue to be strong and fight your way through this new information and find a way to improve what you can and accept the stuff that maybe can't be fixed at least in the immediate future. My belief is as long as you have a pulse and some level of consciousness, there will always be opportunities for healing. Maybe they really small steps and are hidden really well; but they are there. Keep trying.