After the intensity of the last two sessions, I've decided to take a break. My subconscious must be in agreement with me, because the trauma stuff isn't leaking into my thoughts right now. In fact, I feel kind of calm and okay. Which is an awesome change, and a huge relief.

I left a message with T and told him I'd be bringing my crayons and my mandala coloring book and sitting on the floor tomorrow. I told him I REALLY want to wear my pajamas! I just feel like I want to go and feel comfortable and nurtured. I did reassure him that I would actually show up in my daytime clothes though....

Normally, I think I would be worrying that I'm "running away" from the trauma stuff, or trying to stuff it or avoid it. But right now, I'm just feeling like I've worked REALLY hard on it, and I deserve a break. Just the fact that I can have that thought must mean that I'm actually making progress....which boggles my mind. It comes so slowly, sometimes it seems like nothing is happening. Wow.

I really, really, really need a nurturing, non-traumatic session tomorrow. I hope it works out that way.

[complic8d]

((((((((earthmama)))))
I hope it works out that way too!
Sometimes a break from the hard stuff is therapeutic in its own way. Just relax and have a nurturing session for a change. You've been doing hard work.

Take care

[emilyjeanne]

It is great that you can take a break!

I find that when it gets to be too much that I need a break also.

Have a great session tomorrow!!

[internettie]

((((((((((earthmama))))))))))) You deserve a break.

I color often when in session with my new therapist. She lets me use colored pencils she has (or sometimes I bring mine in) and she printed off some mandalas for me to color. I'm so much more relaxed in session when I'm coloring. I can just imagine you in your pj's, sitting on the floor coloring. Please let me know how it goes. I'm already happy for you.

((((EM)))),
Enjoy your nurturing session tomorrow! You do deserve it after you've worked so hard! I'll be thinking about you. My T date is Tues. at 4:00
Keep us updated.

[sunrise]

Enjoy your nurturing session tomorrow, EM. I hope you get all the nurturing you need, and some extra to tide you to the next session.

[Simcha]

Originally Posted by earthmama

After the intensity of the last two sessions, I've decided to take a break. My subconscious must be in agreement with me, because the trauma stuff isn't leaking into my thoughts right now. In fact, I feel kind of calm and okay. Which is an awesome change, and a huge relief.

I left a message with T and told him I'd be bringing my crayons and my mandala coloring book and sitting on the floor tomorrow. I told him I REALLY want to wear my pajamas! I just feel like I want to go and feel comfortable and nurtured. I did reassure him that I would actually show up in my daytime clothes though....

Normally, I think I would be worrying that I'm "running away" from the trauma stuff, or trying to stuff it or avoid it. But right now, I'm just feeling like I've worked REALLY hard on it, and I deserve a break. Just the fact that I can have that thought must mean that I'm actually making progress....which boggles my mind. It comes so slowly, sometimes it seems like nothing is happening. Wow.

I really, really, really need a nurturing, non-traumatic session tomorrow. I hope it works out that way.

((((Earthenmamma ladygal superwoman!~)))))

Compromise and wear jogging pants/T-shirt combo.

Not every session need be deep and uber-traumatic to be beneficial. My T has a good sense of humor and we laugh a lot. It doesn't mean that we don't work on the problems I have; actually, I find that when I'm more relaxed I have a more beneficial session than I do if I'm keyed up.

I've got my T tomorrow too. Go team.

[ECHOES]

((( earthmama )))

Have a wonderful session today and get lots of and