[MissCharlotte]

I think I have reached a very comfortable and uncensored place with T, and my therapy is reaping the benefits. I frankly don't care anymore what I say to him (in terms of feeling shamed). It's about time. It hit me on the way out tonight when I was telling him something I did to cope when he went away last summer and I said, "I guess I was too shy to tell you then."

Tonight I called T on the way home from therapy and compared my wounded inner child to a frightened cat.??? I told T that she would never come out unless she was offered love and kindness. I was worried about something he said in session might wind up alienating her. She is very fragile right now. He keeps challenging me to not model the toxic parenting my parents offered me. Sometimes she feels like the challenge is for her and she gets scared. We agreed he would not use the word challenge.

I see p-doc this week and T asked me if I have told p-doc all of the suicidal ideation thoughts. I haven't for a couple of reasons -- first, I don't want my wings clipped (I have to function) and second, although I adore p-doc I don't feel as safe with him as I do with T (in terms of disclosing).

Over and out.

(((((((((((((((((((((Miss))))))))))))))))))))))))

What an AWESOME place to be. It's so good to just feel safe being US with T.

[snowflakes]

MIssC...

I think what you have done is right. The number one word that you should have in mind in disclosing something to your T/p-doc or even to anyone else is RAPPORT. If there is no rapport that is being established, then you might have find it hard disclosing. Which I think on your part is just right. Remember, building a rapport is the first big step to a successful treatment and to a healthy client-doctor relationship.

[chaotic13]

Originally Posted by MissCharlotte

I think I have reached a very comfortable and uncensored place with T, and my therapy is reaping the benefits.

This sounds nice. I think I am moving at least in to the comfortable zone...not quiet the uncensored place yet. But my email communication are pretty much there.

I liked your frighten cat analogy... she may come out but be prepared. She might turn quickly to claw and bit ya for no apparent reason.

[phoenix7]

I'm glad you have a good realtionship with your T and sorry that its not the same with your pdoc - I think its great that you are letting T know what you need and how you feel