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I'm upset over the silliest thing. I've been seeing this very nice guy for a month and talked a month prior. He's helping me with things and doing things for me that he offered. And things are going well. I like him. There are things about him that bother me to no end. Fixable things. But then there is the guy I want or so I think I want. He comes into work all the time and I wish he would ask me out. But not now bcz the guy I've been seeing its been going well and so I'm upset that bookstore guy never asked (which means not interested) and nice guy did ask. I know it seems silly bit I'm mad at both and myself for wanting someone that doesn't want me and wanting to ruin something that is good at the moment. I don't want to rush the nice guy just in case the bookstore guy comes around. Oh my gosh I am such a horrible person. I'm upset that I am feeling this way. How sad of a person am I

You're not a bad person, silly girl. You just have a lot of balls in the air. How about slowing down to one ball at a time?

You are not a horrible person at all! Sometimes I think it is a woman's curse to always want what we can't have. Challenges are fun! But sometimes, once the challenge has ended, we find that we don't want what we thought we wanted. Just remember... there is a reason for everything.