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So I've finally gotten to the point my bf and I have begun talking marriage. Now I am bipolar and change is one of my triggers. Since we have begun discussion my mind has been going to the wayside. I can't think straight and I told him the other day I ddnt feel he was being sincere in telling me he loves me so often. I hurt him terribly. And now things aren't quite the same. How does someone like me keep a good man when I turn into this irritable obsessive person.

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How long have you guys been together? I bet he loves you the way you are. Believe me, I am the most nuts person I know (hahahaha) and my husband adores me. I'm not sure why, but I am glad as hell that he can put up with me. I bet your bf is the same way. If he's talking about wanting to marry you, I'm sure he already knows how you are and accepts you.

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I think its over. I push and I push and it wears him down he is irritated with me now he doesn't understand why I push and I push and I say things I know will bother. I don't know how to explain either and the closer we get the harder for me to not do these stupid things. I can't stop. The stupid bipolar in me is to strong. I love him yet he's the one who gets it from me. I think I shld end it now before anyone gets too hurt. Even though I know we both already will be

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I told him about this book and how its supposed to help and he wants to try. I hope it works because right now if this one doesn't work out for me. I won't be trying again. I will refuse everyone know what will happen if I say yes. I can't go through this again. I just couldn't bare it.

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Good luck bridgie. I hope you aren't pushing him away. You can never find love without some possibility of being hurt, but I think its worth it. Is great he's willing to learn more about bipolar, maybe that will help him to understand your feelings and behaviors. Don't give up on him though.

[Amazonmom]

I wasn't diagnosed until this year, but I have been bipolar since I was 21 years old. I met my hubby when I was 22. We didn't realize I was bipolar- we went ahead and made a life for ourselves. We have been together (dating +marriage) for 12 years.

I remember telling my hubby that I wouldn't have burdened him with being with me had I known I was bipolar. Hubby said he was GLAD I didn't know then...because he has never regretted being with me, he has loved our life together. The only thing he wanted to change was me being so depressed at times...he just wants me to be happy. (My hypomanias are mild and infrequent, they don't cause us issues)

Don't pass up the opportunity to be with the love of your life just because you are bipolar.

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I made him irritated and I still got an I love you I gave him some space and today he is saying he wants me to be happy and he will do whatever it takes. He's even going to get the book. Loving a bipolar partner of whatever it is. I can't mess this up. I'm in love with him. I have to get through this brainmush that causes me to think unclearly.

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Aw Bridgie! I'm so glad he still says he loves you!! Amazonmom is totally right, you can have love. I'm glad he's willing to help.