disappointed

i am very shy and don't like to post here.

but i trusted a friend , and weeks went by and i really thought i could trust him 100%. i told him things about my past, my relationship, and he went behind my back and investigated what i had told him. wow.

i even asked him not to. i told him i was telling him my story b/c i trusted him.

my real true friends, support me. even if they don't agree with my decisions, they know that i can explore my life, my future, my heart, my dreams. . . . and if any fail they will be there to catch me. to lift me up.

and that is just how i consider my own friends. i am never a critic of their choices. hey. life is hard at times.
and love is a mystery.
but if there is a chance of it, i think one should go for it. . . .

it's ok if my friends do not feel the same about any of my choices.

but the real friends, just let me be ME.
flaws and all.
b/c they know beyond a shadow of a doubt that i will be there for them thru thick and thin.
but i would never tell them not to go after their dreams.

i totally lost faith in 90 percent of humanity today.
i will never ever in a million years ever want to acknowledge this person's existence, again. to me, he is dead.

thank you pc - for letting me share my real feelings here