[boowokitty]

I am only 19 and was in a relationship with a 32 year old for 13 months and I just ended it but I am still in love with him and I just wanted to say that. He emailed me a few times before I blocked all his email and then he made a new account and emailed me and I check 50 times a day for another one because I miss him so much but he wasn't that nice afterall but I still miss him and I cry all the time because I feel so alone without him. We were together all the time and if he didn't have such problems I think it could've worked. He has lived at home with his mother his entire life and only has a GED and one year of college and has been unemployed for the past 8 months. I went to a presigious high school and, after a year off, am attending college full time. When he was unemployed, I was working for a little bit until I quit my job. he is not a compassionate person and he was alwyas so scared to make plans and to let me make plans because he felt controlled but I wasn't controlling him and it's not my fault that his father beat him and he was selfish and I gave him so much and he left me with a broken heart

[kimmydawn]

kitty, hi and welcome! it sounds like the breakup was necessary. however, that certainly doesn't mean it won't, and doesn't, hurt. it's hard. i know when i divorced my first husband, i grieved. it was what i'd wanted for a long time, but was still a death of sorts...a death of hopes, dreams, etc.

allow yourself to grieve and move on. it sounds like you have things together for your young life. it sounds like he doesn't even know what he wants for today, let alone for the future. jump into school and friends. you're gonna do great!

let us know how it goes.

kd

kd's response was great and i don't know what i can add to it. the disparity in ages and his lack of ambition are red flags for me, though.

it sounds like you're on track and have plans for yourself and that is great. let us know how you are doing. xoxox pat

[llt14pscl]

boowokitty. He has been holding you back, and the worst is the selfishness. you are very bright and had chosen a good path for both of you. Stick to it, and do not change the course. Very short term pain, but a great gain in long term. you deserve the best, not a second best, in life. we should live, learn, share and grow, happilly.