my bipolar rantings are putting a strain on my relationship

I've been up and down each day. I'm on meds but not the right amounts or something. I've been irritable and angry to where I say I don't care just go away. I'm not sure if I'm acting out like this bcz we are stuck in a place we can't move from yet or if I don't want to be in it at all. I'm so confused and lost. When I push him away eventually he will go. He says he can handle the moodswings but I don't think he can. I asked him to read a book on being a partner to a bipolar person but I don't think he's read it or will. I don't even know if it helps really.

I hope he reads it. I think the books do help. Im reading one now and Im not partner though i wish i was. Im a friend and i feel like it helps me. Please encourage him to read it . it will help.

(((bridgie)))

Sounds like you're in a tough spot .

Perhaps you can try printing out brief descriptions of bipolarism, characteristics, behavior symptoms, available treatments, etc. for your boyfriend to gain a better understanding of the disorder. A solid and clear description may give him the motivation to learn more about what he can do to help.

Best wishes to you ~ I hope that he's willing to learn a little. Take care!

I asked him if he read the book he said part of it. Except each time I get a ltl upset it gets worse btn us. This last time he told we he was going to toss in the towel. This was after he said he cld handle things. I don't know if something like this can last

I know the feeling. My illness affects my marriage in a very negative way. It has been a rocky 12 years but I cope the best I can. Deep down inside though I feel that she has some issues also. I am amazed we came this far. Peace - Dennis

(((((Bridgie))))) I think it takes a very special person to live with those of us who have severe mood swings. That's not our fault. If we could be different we would, right? I'm still learning to not blame myself. I think it is not a good sign if he does not show a real interest in learning about you and how to live with you. But maybe he's just not one who learns things by reading a book. Maybe by living through it, he will learn how to be with you in a healthy way. I would trust your gut instinct on this.

He has said before that the more he sees the easier it will get. Today is the day after a big episode of the anger straight into the severe depression and I feel strange talking with him today. I don't want to push anymore so I'm sort of retreating. I know I shldnt do that either but I'm so tired now that I don't feel like talking either and he is off to do some of the things that got me going yesterday. I'm not sure how to feel about things today.